ugly or no?

The first question I ask myself when something doesn't seem to be beautiful is why do I think it's not beautiful. And very shortly you discover that there is no reason. - John Cage

i know, i know.
you're probably all so sick of quotes that if i post one more, you might burst.
anyhow. whenever i think something is ugly, i don't have a reason either.
but that doesn't change the fact i think it's ugly.
it's just.. ugly o_o
that's why i sometimes go to crazy lengths to try make it pretty. or something i approve of.
thing is, when i'm done, even if it's pretty.. i still don't know why it is.
my lamp was a result of that.
even though i don't think it's as good as i wanted it to be.
i kind of made bobo like that too. i mean, what's the point of creating something if it's going to be ugly?
most people just say "oo beauty is only skin deep"
that's plenty deep enough for me. how deep do you want it to get?
pretty livers and beating hearts aren't really my kinda thing.
all creations should be designed to be appreciated and valued.
.. to bring joy. and possibly a reason to exist. be of some practical use at the very least.
i wish god had thought of that

coz i suck at cutting toenails
\