cuddle fuddle

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WEEP WEEP WHOOOH!
i'm going to terrorise you :D

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it's kind of scary when 160 or less people know you and your actions but you have no idea who they are o_o
i realised last month i should get a new blogskin but meh.
TOMORROW'S GONNA BE HELLA AWKWARD. (tu)

i'm sorry for being such a dick ):
i was just.. miserable? yknow?
actually no i am not going to try justify myself. i was a dick. a dick dick.
on days like those i snap at anyone/thing that tries me.

omg i cant say that to them.. think think think cj.

i'm p a t h e t ic sorry ):

you may not know the unspoken, unwritten rules that govern being a new girl.
you have to be shy, not overbearing, nice to everyone try to not piss off your school and do everything you can to be happy and not piss anyone off blabla
well i think i've broken every one of those rules.
i repeat, nsg is not bad.
but the difference is really getting to me now.
i'm turning into a dick and pissing myself off so when people get pissed at me i dont even care.
i'm turning into one of those tools who don't give a fuck about anything, esp school and much less about themselves.

let me be a little prat and not grow up and fuck myself over.
i don't want to suck it up. i have for three weeks and tried to be happy and then i was for a bit but then i was like hangon you're lying to yourself and then..
i lost my trail of thought.

for alison

lol sorry i don't visit blogspot very much anymore.
but just in case you wanted to know

i miss hornsby girls very much.
like. i miss my friends i miss the way they laugh how they do stupid stuff in public how me and rachel randomly break into song the way i shove genie and she flies sewons massages alesha doing funny imitations alison dissing me and making me feel bad and everyone else yeah sorry i can't name it all.
i miss it so much i even miss the stuff i hated. or thought mundane and boring.
like the 3 hours spent on public transport
being late for roll call and having to get a late note
waiting for buses and trains with nicole and alesha

oh boy how much i miss you.

and so far eco jap english at nsg isn't too good.
i'll have to study with you guys or get extra tutoring
i suppose their teaching style must be a bit different.
or hornsby's is more thorough and comprehensive.
idno.

or, most likely, nsg is perfectly fine it's just i'm being a dick because i miss you all.
and because i'm the only cool new kid. joking but i'm the only new kid from selective i think.
most of the new kids are alright i think

BUT SOME OF THEM ARE SO CHAT SORRY OMG AND THEY'RE REALLY MEAN TO ME.
well i think they're mean.
you know when you look at a person and you just know? or you get a feeling?
then they talk and you're like okay now i'm sure.

well anyawys heaps of the new kids at nsg got rejected by hghs so guys feel special.
one thing better about nsg is.. the absence of mr shallmar
hated him lol.
OMG AND GEEKS > TBS SORRY LOL
HAHAHAHAH

i miss hornsby so much.
IF ANY OF THE NEW KIDS REPLACE ME I WILL COME WITH MY NEW FOUND GANGSTER PEOPLE AND BE VERY ANGRY.