merry christmas

oooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooo
what's that smell i smell on you
is
it magic perrfume
coz i swear to god
you smell just like christmas
to meeee eeee e eee

yeah well youuu areee my christmas tree
you mean everything to me
you mean everything to me
eeee

and you are my shooting star
if you shoot me in my heart
then ill fall apart
wuuuh wuuh


you pick me up when i am down
wuuuuh wuh
you pick me up off the ground
wuuuuh wuh


and i don't know if it's such a good idea
'cause your way down there and im way up here ya...
"you have really long arms
so why don't you use them to hold me tight"


wuuuuuuhhh wuuuh

LOL

coco austin

is hot.
the FUCK she has ASS MUSCLES
all rappers seem to have big booty bitches.
like how kanye has amber rose.


and yea

kimberly conrad was beautiful
i think she still is
hugh hefner really was fucking around when he divorced her.
fuckingg massive idiot.

he really threw away the biggest pearl into the sea.
the biggest pearl.

coz seriously, the 19 year old jailbait twins he's fucking around with now?
the blondes that come and go?
they're never going to cap kimberly conrad.
idiot.

then again what was SHE doign with a guy like him. obv he's an ugly old codger.
huzzah for the worlds loneliest stupideest old man

KYLE DAYTON

yeah alright so i dig buff guys.
whatever~
(DID YOU SEE THE PART HE FLEXES HIS PECS HOMG THAT WAS HILARIOUS I BET HE CAN BREAK OPEN BEER CAPS WITH THOSE)


--

my new years resolution last year (this year)
was to be myself freely without being afraid of what others would think of me.

i think i did do that this year. somewhat.
just, it got me into a lot more trouble than i would have thought HOHOHO
but i learnt to appreciate what is truly awesome (myself)
joke
but yeah.

SAY HELLO TO ME, x3

my new years resolution this year will be quite different.
i've got a post scheduled and i'll keep editing it until i can perfect it :3
i'm going to be awesome. just sayin.
nah i'm going to TRY be awesome. yeah :D

I LOVE BLACK EYED PEAS'S NEW ALBUM THE BEGINNING

YES!
THE HOLIDAYS HAVE BEGUN!
WOOP
WOOP WOOP WOOP
BRING IT OHNNNNN~
YEA YEA YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OH YEAAA

first i should make a list of all the homework i need to get done..
let's start here

1. ext 2 eng major work and research
- character development
- plot finalisation
- themes/ shit. everything. fuck mi life

2. ext 1 eng
- essay
- read orlando booklet
- read textual dynamics booklet
- learn those theories
- write that creative

3. adv eng
- prac essay for belonging
- belonging report
- redo all my related texts
- revise my creatives
- ?

4. jap
- learn the syllabus

5. ext jap
- watch spirited away a gazilleon times
- read the ext jap book
- do the hw he set us + the catchup hw..
- learn the vocab on consumerism and sht..

6. eco
- summarise textbook? lol catch up on all the lessons i've bludged?

7. legal
- same thing. learn the syllabus


tomorrow:

chatswood?
megamind?
pool? (wth)
CRASH MEGANS HOUSE OR SOME SHIT OMFG I LOVE MEGAN.

things to do in the holiday
- flemington markets
- markets.
- city
- k
- cabra again. i needa buy more sweets!
- the train trip to a hole
- bus trip to a hole?
- fairy meadows
- les date with megan
- a couple more les dates with megan
- catch up with my primary school friends
- catch up with saesoon friends
- idno

:(
i wanna go to a mueseum

and an art place
and i want to traipse across the city in sunglasses

juli grbac why did i only just discover thee?

seriously? seriously.
WHERE CAN I GET THAT LAST ONE.

WANNABE WANNABE

SLANTY EYE ATTACK!



i haven't slept in 24 hours!
다 날 따라 따라 따라 해

speech day!
one day till summer holiday!
sleepover was good! lots of cookies!
i bought a music box!
i have a duck! its name is oliver pepper tremmel
i have a book! i will buy some more!
it was twenty dollars! coz the one i wanted was thirty five but i only had thirty!
kinokuniya is a massive ripoff!
i always end up spending my birthday presents on books! damn!
my 16th was a jap textbook! fail!

still. if i were you, i'd wish i were me ;o
joke.
no joke.
joke.
why aren't people comfortable in their own skins
and why do they have to waste their time doign stupid shit and spouting bull to prove what point?
oh so you're more gangsta than us all? good for you.
yea you get a lot more attention from boys thats great. you get soo much stuff. i totally envy your material wealth. and. everything else. that's great.
I DON'T FUCKING CARE, ESPECIALLY NOT WHEN I'M ON 5% BATTERY.
YOU'RE STILL THE MACHO SPERM-BRAIN I KNEW IN YR7
YOU'RE NOT A FUCKING GUY.
STOP ACTING LIKE A FUCKING TOOL.
FUCK.
you and all your talk talk talk = =

the code by which i will from now live by

along with eating vegetables cutting down meat so i can fit into my jeans again FUCK

PARTYCAT COZ IM A BORED BITCH

MY TWO DAYS OF PAIN ARE OVER.

I'M GOING TO FUCKING PARTY LIKE A PARTY CAT UNTIL THE YEAR GOES OUT.
(29 days)

then 29 days till my birthday.
WOOP WOOP
WEOOOo WEO WEOOOOOOO

YEAH YEAH YEAH MY LIFE IS A PARTY













and this is my uniform at the beginning of this year.
why is nsg uniform so pretty >_<
my room is v messy because atm we are renovating the house... yeah...

i am a king and will not be hated

god made me beautiful
i am beautiful
my BODY, parts and p i e c e s
jiggly bits and all.

and when my mind wanders.. where it go?

i'm starting eco now
yeah i know i'm fucked
god knows when i'll start for legal
or start writing my stuff for viva voce

yeah i know fuck you it's yr12 whatever.
i'm a winger T___T

i am spoilt?

where the fuck did he get the money to buy all this shit
amongst all the other things he got me

i now have
3 swatch watches. the black one, if you tap the screen, the hands move to times in differnet places or something. like it changes depending on what the time is.. like the hour hand iwll move 80 degrees anticlockwise and the minute 180 clockwise or osmething.. yeah its really entertaining to watch
a pair of sunglasses from renoma.. that are too round for my liking
a nice jacket
laneige eyeliner
mamonde sunscreen and eyeliner
tony moly eyeliner
what the FUCK I ASKED FOR ONE
and a skincare set.. for age control..
and headphones
and earphones
and gel pens
and glow in the dark stars
and highlighters
and an arnold palmer umbrella.. which is pretty useless coz i'm going to keep using my cheap asian yellow pooh bear umbrella

i gave my brother a swatch watch
i wanted it.. even though it looked kinda manly.
and all this other shit.
i wish my sunglasses actually looked good and weren't a waste of.. how many hundred dollars he spent on them = =
i would have much rather preferred 10$ sunglasses that looked hot. fml.

all the skincare products he got me and mum have a whitening element LOL
EVERY SINGLE ONE WHITENS THE SKIN
and the sets all have a bb cream included
lOL I HAV BB CREAM NOW IM GONNA BE RELLI PALE
LOLSIdj FOsdFERIODFsdf EIOFSf?

my uncle though is giving me his iphone 3gs coz he's upgrading to an iphone 4
lulz

IPHONE 3GS FUK YEA
OMGOD xD

FORGET IT ALL.

someday this moment will just be a memory

all the crazy shit i did last night

remember in yr9 when i thought kid kudi was the shit?
(i still do)

watching david guetta mv's makes me feel sad.
especially that one for sexy bitch.
seriously.
i'm just like... DAYUMM GURRRL.
they're ALLL SO SKINNY
and fucken tall
makes me wanna throw up everythingi eat and starve myself stupid.

if this be not love, it is madness, and then it is pardonable
william congreve, 'the old bachelor', 1693

he's just not that into you

1. i will not go out with a man who hasn't asked me out first
2. i will not go out with a man who keeps me waiting by the phone
3. i will not date a man who isn't sure he wants to date me
4. i will not date a man who makes me feel unattractive
5. i will not date a man who drinks or does drugs to an extent that makes me uncomfortable
6. i will not be with a man who's afraid to talk about our future
7. i will not, under any circumstances, spend my precious time with a man who has already rejected me
8. i will not date a man who is married
9. i will not be with a man who is clearly not a good, kind, loving person.

HEAR HEAR.

yeah yeah, okay so i'm slow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqSKVv6YO8g

amy winehouse is an amazing singer.
damn gurl.

oh yeah, for swimming carnival, the theme is jailhouse right?
well.. amy winehouse IS jailhouse
if i can find out how to do the beehive with my asian hair...
I'M SO GOING AS AMY WINEHOUSE :D

how nice :)

n a YouTube clip last year, Longoria Parker - who plays former runway model Gabrielle Solis on the popular US television series about life in suburbia - said her idea of paradise was being in love.

"Whether it is being in love or feeling love or giving love or receiving love, but to be in this constant environment of intimacy and ecstasy," she said.

"To me that is paradise,"

eva longoria's getting divorced coz her husband is a cheating skank.
hundreds of texts with another woman.
and cheating on her with ANOTHER woman earlier in their marriage.

bro. your wife is eva longoria. EVA LONGORIA.
why teh fuck would you do that to yourself?

this is a guy.

the weather today is delightful

i used to have a frog
its name was mojo.
it was very small. sort of dark. i found it really cute.
we kept it in a big plastic container with water and bricks and shit
with stuff like snails in it occasionally for it to eat.
one day, i came back home to find it gone.
frogs have this thing with sunlight. almost like photosynthesis, so we'd left the box outside.
mojo had disappeared without a trace. well, what could it have left behind? it was no snail. mojo had been a frog, after all.

i was just reading a story by murakami about a big frog.
say the word- frog. it's delightful.
frog, frog, frog. i could say it all day. frog.
it's almost funny. it brings a smile to my face.
frog frog frog. ribbet.
hello. i am a frog. i will pour tea for you and have civil conversation with you.
frog. i am a big frog.
frog.

i miss my frog sometimes :(
i would say i hope it's okay
but it's probably not.
it's probably dead.
but beyond all things of chance, i wish my little frogs guts weren't splayed out on some roadside to rot away in the sunlight, or digested by some nasty creature.
mojo will be my frog forever in my heart D<
and if i ever get another frog
i will name it mojo in mojo's memory.

frog. - smile -
HAHAHHAAH.



----


Masakichi was a kind of special bear. And so the other bears, who weren't so special, tended to shun him.

an interesting fact about me-

i am scared to fuck of menopause.
so until then i plan to cram in as many slanty-eyed, mathematically-talented, asian babies as possible.
(coz my husband will be good at math)

and they will be bought up like mafia-children
and be geniuses in their own right.

its.haeun says:
*heheheheh
*:D
*you know
*theres a thing always said in our group
*and thats that sewon has the capacity to dominate
*and sewon and cj will make O: gg
*but then that would never work out
*cause they'll end up clashing with each other
*but just saying
*imagine a world with sewon and cj as overlords O_O
-       megan        says:
*LOL
*if world was dominated by sewon and ck
**cj
*noone will ever sleep
its.haeun says:
*LOL YES
*HAHAHAHAH
-       megan        says:
*can u imagine them installing like
*PA systems
*in everyones houses
its.haeun says:
*OMG YES
-       megan        says:
*and like shouting random shit
its.haeun says:
*and making them
-       megan        says:
*when they feel like it?
its.haeun says:
*act out whatevers in their heads?
-       megan        says:
*ahahahhahaha
its.haeun says:
*and going spaztic
*oh man
*dont even want to imagine it

english is taking over my life and i'm not sure how i feel about it

sometimes i forget that
wishful thinking never got me anywhere

it kept me happy though

:D


lalalalala i have developed really shit sleeping habits again
no math! *dance*
no science! *dance*

please let me have a good weekend
and yr12
LOVE.

i'm beginning to realise
every profound or insightful thought/realisation i had about literature / language itself

has already been thought of by someone
it is called philosophy
fucking hell i should have just studied philosophy and saved myself the bother of thinking it all up by myself and then realising someone else had already thought of it miles deeper than i had ever fathomed the subject could go
:0

the awe of the world

my outsider love

not the best mv but
HOW HOT IS HE NOW
AND HOW MUCH DOES HE LOOK LIKE KIM RAE WON
from coffee prince, my little bride, love story at harvard and all those other dramas?
dash that HE LOOKS EVEN HOTTER
OH MY GODD



and look how drag-queeny bitch he looked before with his fag hair?

it's the suit.
yes barney stintson
everyone looks hotter when they suit up

and the haircut lol

JOYFUL JOYFUL LORD

HI GUYS
SORRY FOR BEING SUCH AN ANGSTY BITCH

you know i love ye all ye?


JOYFUL JOYFUL
GOD IS SO GOOD TO ME.

seriously
i am one
seriously lucky girl.
:)

you are a breath of fresh air
how i suffocate without this ether in my veins
sunshine in my veins!
sunshine in my soul!
sunshine and lollypops
i have had
3 bloocks of chocolate htis week

major works 10 are really good

it is my dream to be able to write with such conviction and passion
and ignite fires within hearts
and inspire.. fireworks

my life is ending by the second

The result of it all is that I have come, rather reluctantly, to respect delusion, not least of all my own. There are no passions quite as hot and pleasurable as those of the deluded. Compared to the bliss of delusion, its vivid colours, blazing lights, explosions, whistles and liberating joys, the search for evidence is a deadly bore.

--

i've come to respect arthur miller a bit more

but

another piece of news-
i am in a great deal of pain right now
it's not because i bit my tongue so hard at lunch today that it bled
i hate cramps
it is like a hot blade being run through my inner flesh, tearing it apart, healing and sealing itself back up instantly, only to be sliced apart again.

i wonder if being kicked in the nuts hurts more.
perhaps that is more a sharp scream
whereas cramps is like a dull muted on-going roar that lasts the entire day.

i can only imagine what labour must feel like

if your 8 year old self met you as you are now

would they be proud?


yes.

as an 8 year old my dream was hornsby girls'
i think. well from the time i found out about it i was like
ah!
that is the school i want to go to.
of course once i got in i'd long forgotten about it and it wasn't as important to me
and at one point i was like fk hornsby new school pl0z

but yes :)
i think i would be proud
because i was also very bad at english
korean was still my native language back then
of course i still read a shatload of books (for kids)
i guess what i'm experiencing is the reward for my effort
thanks 8 year old christine


then again LOL she'll be liek
OMG YOU'RE 16 WITH NO BOYFRIEND?
LOLZ FAIL
T^T
i don't need a man!

LOL YOU'RE EVERYTHING ON THIS BUT HOT

1. ABG 277 up, 16 down
buy abg mugs, tshirts and magnets
An acronym for an "aznbbygirl" meaning an asian female gangster. ABG's like to hang with gangsters and wear thin (slutty) clothing. They like to jump other girls who talk shit (or try jump them) and make out with their boyfriends 24/7 (maybe even have sex.) Usually own side kicks who also like to text frequently. ABG'S also normally have a "ride or die" homie, someone who is always down for them, or die trying. ABG's are also known for dying their hair alot. From blonde to black. They have many piercings: multiple on the ears, and stomach/lip. (oh chat) They probably have teased hair, bangs, and have had extensions at one point or another. Could also have painted nails and tatoos. ABG's are super hot, but you would probably get jumped if you tried to hit on them. (really?) They also loiter and hang out past curfew.

miscarriage

i hate the word to miscarry
it almost sounds as if it's a mistake on the mothers' part. she carried it wrong.
how can you carry a baby wrong IT IS IN YOUR BODY.
HOW COULD SHE HAVE HELPED THAT.
enough of my feminist rant
mistake, misadventure
the worst fear of a pregnant lady would be to miscarry, i think.
babies shouldn't be mistakes :(

i was a mistake :(

i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while

심심할때 가사 읽기

선곡표 - Epik HIgh

stay 이 밤이 깊어가지만
부디 안녕이라고 말하지마
그댄 어떤가요? 이밤에 끝을 잡고 싶은데
그건 절대 안되나요?
난 그대 원하고 원망하죠
이별 택시를 타고 어서 Adio 잘가요
let me say goodbye
거리에서 혼자 남은 한 남자
사랑한단 말 그 거짓말에
한숨만 늘어가네 다신 사랑안해
남자답게 이젠 널 지우려해
다시 마주치지말자 난 행복해
근데 사랑은 향기를 남기고 가
벌써 그녀가 너무 보고 싶다
정말 사랑했나봐 그래 너의 뒤에서
후회한다 친구라도 될껄 그랬어 -


사랑하긴 했던걸까?
그저 장난이었던건 아닐까?
우리가 노래하던 이별 얘기들의 가사처럼
기억도 잊혀져갈까


다시 사랑한다 말할까?
사랑할수록 멀어져간 사람아
아무리 생각해도 난 너를
사랑해 그리고 생각해 너를 위해
천일동안 이별이 오지못하게
내 눈물 모아 살다가 사랑하는
왜 내 남은 사랑을 위해 벌써 일년
사랑하기 때문에 아름다운 이별
그대만 있다면 행복한 나를
다 줄거야. 사랑은 아름다운 날들
사랑했잖아 뭐를 잘못한거니?
너의 집 앞에서 발걸음 덩그러니
바람이 분다 전부 너였다
한장의 추억 사진을 보다가
기억속으로 가만이 눈을 감고
어제처럼 또 한번 사랑 한다고


기억에서 멀어진
너의 모습을 찾을수 있었지
널 잊을수 없어
널 보낼수 없어 이렇게도
say goodbye


요즘엔 들을만할 노래가 없어
마음속에 담을만한 가사가 없어
그대가 떠났기 때문에
세상이 변했기 때문에

what what what what are you doing?

cut me out of your life?
CUT ME OUT?

rOARIAROEFDFSF FUCKYOU.

----

and you didn't try didn't try didn't find me
and when i turn around you're following someone new

YOU LOST YOUR SOUL
YOU DIDN'T KNOW
THIS IS A LOW
THIS IS A LOW
this is lowlife

--

i said this before but greed is a fat demon with a small mouth and nomatter how much you feed it, it isn't enough. spoilt brat.

you've always been the same.
why don't you ever, ever, just try consider other people before you for once.
stop crying and look what you have
it's more than me, isn't that enough?

-
is being so vapid great?
you're really pretty
too bad you're one FUCKING ROTTEN APPLE
with maggots and worms and shit in the centre.
LEST ANYONE TAKE A BITE INTO YOU.
i feel sorry for your future husband
then it is biologically proven
men go for the hot chicks.
its all about looks- quite literally.
the youthful ones. the ones who would be more likely to reproduce.
the ones it would be most easy to be able to reproduce. (the easy girls)
well good luck with the bitch of a fish you've landed yourself!
i will have me a smart man who respects me.
and can do math.
(hopefully he exists)
-

lately i've been too content.
too happy. despite my 6 morning classes.
despite people taking shit from me irregardless of how i feel about that
waking up at crazy times in the morning.
actually doing homework.
copping shit for not doing any math

i don't know.
am i smart?
i hate the word. smart.
it suggests something painful
ah! that smarts.
i guess i am better than your average chelt.
much better.
but the word smart sets a standard i have to meet
usually its okay but in exam times and assessments it makes me freak out
if i don't do well then i wont have met expectations
i would have disappointed.
i don't have a habit of disappointing people. or myself
i've been so used to people calling me a dumbshit
esp my own mum who even now does it every day like
'you're not even that smart. maybe you should do something more your level and become a teacher or something'
but i've been beginning to question (because the coaching places i go to have told me i'm actually pretty smart)
maybe i am pretty brainy in my own right
fuck what my mum thinks she's a stupid bitch to start with

maybe i can do whatever i like :)
maybe being a prosecutor/magistrate/judge
being the little unconnected asian girl i am
maybe .. maybe its happenable.
but then these thoughts are also always very dangerous.
usually i end up just disappointing myself.
and that in turn discourages me even more and my self esteem lowers just a tad more D:

but one day! one day i will know!
until then my ultimate destination remains the same i guess.
housewife :)

all the things that were important to me

they don't matter to you

coz under your skin under your skin under your skin

is an average guy




AND ALL I CARE IS SEX AND VIOLENCE
A HEAVY BASS LINE IS MY KIND OF SILENCE

okay enough music

guess which bitch has a netbook now?
YEAH ME!
its not that light though. its like. 2kg.. 2.5kg
BUT ITS OKAY. coz i'm a tank girl.
12 hours battery life!
not that fast.. 1.6ghz?
220gb memory..

do all netbooks lack a disk drive? ... lame
it didn't come with anything
no case or anything.
not paying 30 for one!
going ot get one off somebody!
then i'll bring it to school every day.

tbh i wanted this other one but it was almost sold out with only the display model left and only had 6 hours battery life. HP.
wtever. this is my new baby now.
my new baby.

english coaching is a fuckng waste of time

it rained on me today

i had somethign to say but i forgot
i had morning class today
i am tired
im not fob
brb

i'm ddropping maths
yeah i'm actually that stupid

but smart enough to know i should drop it.

don't you dare look down on me D<



























i'm too tired to feel anything

the morning-afters

this is me after a 12-hour camp.

no sleep for over two days.

i can also cry like a bitch and look fine 5 mins after

maybe it's coz my eyes are small to start with. ohwells.

it's kind of strange
i am accepting my asian-ness
seriously i look so asian its like LOL ASIAN

life was simple as a dreamer

then shit got real.


from tomorrow we start yr12.

h s fucken c.


are you ready?
(i'm not)
my nails are painted funky.
facing frau arch in the morning.. eh.

morning class. eh.
being tired and having even slantier eyes because of sleeping at 3am and waking up at 7
.. eh.


but bring on the freedom!
the fear!

after yr12 i'm so fucked!
what will i do?
where will i go?
i will be let loose into the world!

(church camp was awesome btw.)


where the hell did my holidays go?
i feel as if i just walked through a door.

heheeh

every time I'm with yah baby I laugh a lot
such great humor and on top of that damn you're hot
every cat be staring at you whenever you passed the block
you're so fly you be chilling with them astronauts
you can never be tamed ever get married it better be jay
didn't know by now well I said it today
because you're perfect in every way every day
more than just a girl you're by my side through my vendettas
soul mates in this jail of love and we doing life together


chorus:
every time I hit you up
girl you put it down and you love to be around
I just can't get enough of you
you got me head over heels but I got to keep it real
I really think I’m the man for you
you can be my bestie girl
you can be my bestie girl
you can be my bestie girl
you can be my bestie girl

wanna be with you forever till we're buried in the ground
wanna put you in my pocket and then carry you around
like you're moving so much junk in your trunk your jeans sag
every time I see you jaw drops like a scream mask
yeah girl I feel your walk I feel the sparks
be there through everything even late night and the pillow talks
don’t need no directions know the way to your heart if we married
tennis only time I'll take you to court

chorus:

I need you I can't live without you
you're my everything girl
don’t need anybody else
it's just me and you against the world
I need you can't live without you
you're my everything girl
don’t need anybody else
it's just me and you against the world




LOL WHAT A CUTE SONG


but

marrying your 'bestie' ?
sif.
eugh.

i'm the hero of the story don't need to be saved

it's all right it's all right it's all right it's all right it's all right it's all right it's all right it's alright

no one's got it all

no one's got it all








i owe alsha 30$
just getting it out there for memory.
i owe eugenie 30$
(long-term paying her for her art)
i need to save 15$
ok . ok . ok .

memwahs

so far this holidays

friday - no school (semis)
partied like a party cat.
saturday - WAKING UP IN RACHELS HOUSE (Y) oo yeah k then jajangmyun
sunday - CHURHC :)
monday - castle towers + pennant hills + castle towers + my house with caroline
tuesday - MEGRANNS HOUSE we be takin over eppeng.. yea.. book shopping + saw awesome tony moly shit and had the best icecream and watched one shit movie and one fucking awesome movie (yes man) and i had a major allergic reaction and had acne for a day
wednesday - ALESHAS BIRTHDAY. penno then city then bargain shopping with sewon then caps with alison yeji alesha sewon then icecream at passionflower then train to eastwood then see gillian and caroline and evelyn then go sakae then have some FUCKING AWESOME K WITH EVERYONE.

you have not been to k
until you have heard evelyn sing boom boom pow in an indian accent.
she is such a party animal :)

thursday - wake up in the arvo. go library with caroline. she comes to my house and watches salt with me on my FUCKIN 50" :)

coming up

friday - eye test. uh. yeah. home reading.
saturday - this random church thing with judy
sunday - church and 12 hour camp
monday - bbq with megan
tuesday - i forgot
wednesday - cabra with alesha
thursday - i forgot but i have jap tutoring for the first time in my life in the arvo FUCK
friday - church camp(?) but i dont really wanna go coz i hate socialising im such an awkward turtle and i hate group activities bczo im stupid and socially inept
saturday - which would mean on saturday i'd be in churchy tb hell
sunday - i would be back on earth
monday - i would probably be crying at home because my holidays are over and

I WOULD BE SO FUCKED

so that is my holidays in a nutshell.

partycat

imma party and party and party and par-ar-ar-ar-arty and party and party and ar-ar-ar-ar

jk

semis were fun

i didn't take off my make up or change that night
this is what i looked like in the morning
very tired


this is me yawning

rachels afters. HEKTIKKK BRO.
food was (Y)

then we went k and had jajangmyun.


you know what defines a party cat moment?
(in my opinion)
its when people shove you into a circle during the crap part of the song
and you're like OMFG WTF HOW DO I DANCE TO THIS OSMFGSDF I WANNA GET OUT

YEAH YEAH YEAH GO GO PARTY CAT GO
*SCREAM* YEAH *SCREAM* *SCREAM* WOOP WOOP
then you lose balance coz your shoes are 2 sizes too big but then you keep on going..
until you're like

k time to go
new person in!

then afterwards you stop thinking and it's all WOOPing
life is more funw hen you stop thinking, i think.

because if i don't stand up for myself, no one will

co-dependency

IS NOT CUTE.

yeah you go gurrl

chris crocker betch.
i won't die without you.





bee girl is my new idol

today's ups and downs

ups
- i didn't study at all for english exam
- i found it pretty easy
- was at school for like an hour

downs
- it took two hours just to get home
- i lost 20$
- now i can't buy my eyeliner

:(

i love cl she is my god she makes me hyperventilate she is so cool

CL
너무 치사하잖아 너답지 못하잖아
지금 적응이 안돼 어지러워 왜
누가 누구랑 헤어져
네가 나랑 헤어져
잘 생각하고 말해 Yeah!


민지
날 따라다니던 남자 참 괜찮았던 남자
난 너 하나 때문에 다 보냈는데
누가 누구랑 헤어져
네가 나랑 헤어져
나 없이 잘 살아봐 yeah!

CL
Tonight 하필 또 비는 내려 왜
내 모습 초라해지게


민지
날 위로 하지는 마
이 손 치워 이제 남이니까

봄
내 걱정 말고 Go Away
집착 없이 사라져 줄게
메달 릴 줄 알았겠지
역겨워 착각하지마

다라, 민지, 봄
더 멋진 사람 만날게
널 후회하게 만들어 줄게
슬픔은 지금 뿐이야 boy
Cause love is over, Love-love is over tonight

CL
Just say what you gotta say
어쩜 끝까지 멋없니?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I’m walkin’ out of destiny
초라한 홀로가 아닌 화려한 솔로
That’s my way
모든걸 다 줬으니 오히려 난 후회 안 해
지가 더 슬픈 척/ 끝까지 멋있는 척
All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shit without your crew
시간 없어/ I gotta go
안녕/ good bye/ adios
네 못난 얼굴 다신 보고 싶진 않아 no more

민지
Tonight 하필 또 비는 내려 왜
내 모습 초라해지게

다라
날 위로 하지는 마
이 손 치워 이제 남이니까





she shouldn't have gone to his house.
they should have used a hotter guy. he was so chat pissed me off.
but its fitting for a girl basher to be chat.
when he first hit her i paused it and started bitching about it to people

a guy hitting a girl?
a guy hitting CL?
AW HELL NO. WHAT THE F-
but seriously.
i could have killed him then and there.
he hit her more than once o_o
i would have smashed him.
like


a boy hitting a girl?
that's fucking not on.
FUCK. if any guy hits me when i grow up
i would make sure that he gets really FUCKED UP.

thank you ha eun for showing me this thing.

my brother had tits when he was a baby
OLOL

BRING ON THE HOLIDAYS- I'M READY

five exams left.


english adv
spanish speaking (FUCK ME) and jap speaking
legal studies and japanese

so i have two exams a day next week.
then thurs i have nsg semiformal

i'm going to look so shit and tired LOL

FUCK EXAMS :(

hot, royal and ginge!

when people call prince harry hot i slap my forehead in disbelief.


i had english speaking today. went orright.
had spanish today. coulda gone worse.

in fact i was astounded i was even capable of completing the exam.
which i did.

not bad eh? next up is two days of hardcore ext eng and eco-ing.
fuck maths :D

then i have othello, jap speaking, spanish speaking then legal and jap.

mmmm bababa.


which means.. i probably should study legal and english over the weekend..
fuck japones :D

y fuck el espanol :D

se manifique etre simpatico!

i'll tell you who's royally hot and ginge- (though she's naturally blonde)
christina hendricks. dayum gurl.

aand this is probably old news but ruby rose is the hottest lesbian i done ever seen. furreals. lindsay and samantha got nothing on this one *0*

too bad im not les :(

ITS BECAUSE OF GLOBAL WARMING!

no im joking.

anyways
there was an earthquake in christchurch newzealand.
my uncle and aunt and cousins live there.
funny thing, i was just thinking about them this week.
hahaha i miss them :D

well nobody died. no deaths. that's a good thing.
but new zealand?
whoever heard of earthquakes in new zealand?
i used to live right in the middle of christchurch.
i hope my old school crumbled. racist shitheads D<

yeah yeah yeah i was there when there was a volcanic erruption yeah yeah :D

C'est magnifique, être sympathique, mais je ne le connais jamais.

i hate you all today.

NO HABLO FRANCAIS

My room is a cage
The sun streams through the window,
the bellhops are at my door
like those little soldiers
who want to take me away.

I don't want to work,
I don't want to lunch
I only want to forget and so I smoke.

Long ago I knew the smell of love,
a million roses didn't smell as sweet.
Now a single flower in my way makes me sick.

Chorus

I am not proud if this life
that wants to kill me.
It's magnificent to be sympatico
but I have never known this.

i sat on my brother to see what would happen

nothing did.



--

like, he was gaming and i went behind him and sat on his back.
.. he just kept gaming.
whereas in our school it would elicit a most tremendous response all to do with how weird it is to feel two lumps of fat on your back.. that belongs to a bottom.. ... harh ar

why megan chen is my role model + should be a stand-up comedian

◍ CJAYY!! says:
*ene; stylehungrycrew. says:
*that's not too bad.
*i mean, you can't really complain about alcohol, can you ?
*.. you did come to the school dance highly intoxicated, if i so do remember.
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*............
*wow
bene; stylehungrycrew. says:
*damn right.
*FUCK THIS
*BAD MEMORY TIME
*EUHG
-       megan        says:
*WOW
*says the bald idiot dressed in maccas colours
*tripping over his own leg
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOKL
*IOSDFJOSDf
*IO WOULD SO
*C+P THAT
*BUT THAT IS TOO MEAN
-       megan        says:
*DUDE
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*THAT IS ACUTALLKY
-       megan        says:
*NO
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*REALLY GOOD THO
-       megan        says:
*AHHAHA
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LL
-       megan        says:
*wow im surprised u got more offended over primitive
*i would have actually like
*slammed my laptop
*and take a train to hornsby
*if he commented on me being highly intoxicated
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOL
*hornsby?
*why hornsby'
-       megan        says:
*i think thats where he lives
*or gets off
*:D
*(Y)
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOL
*and then
*what
*kill him?
-       megan        says:
*no
*i'll smash his head with his imaginary 8 year old copy of great expectation
*and then burn his koreanto english electronic dictionar
*y
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOL
*LOL
*LOL
*YOU'RE MAKING ME LAUGH
*LIKE ACTUALLY
*IM LIKE[
-       megan        says:
*and say in those guerilla leader voices
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOL
*HAHAHFODSF
-       megan        says:
*THIS IS FOR CHRISTINE
*LOOK WHO'S PRIMITIVE NOW
*and then burn his clothes
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LIKKLLLOLOL
-       megan        says:
*and then walk out with my bazooka
*"haters gun hate"
◍ CJAYY!! says:
*LOLL
*dude
*this be epic
*im putting this somewhere


MEGRAN U SO FUNNEH

희망은 잠들지 않는 꿈

I WUV KUHYUN
his voice is like. *0*


uhhh this week has been a hard week.
i have not done so much work in a long time.
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm.
short story.. i would post up.. but..
THEY'RE SO EXPLICIT AND WHO WOULD BE BOTHERED TO READ THEM?

i have a new jap assistant teacher
i'm still trying to figure out whether he's hot or just looks like a bitch.
2 weeks till exams
uh.

am i meant to have started studying?

i have people over from church and they're annoying.
koreans suck in general. JK I WUV U KOREANZ.
k brain juice gone me tired baibai <3x

MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC FOUNTAIN
DUHHH UHH UHH UHH BUH BUH BUHUHUHUHUHH

it is sometimes exhausting

going to a school full of amazingly talented pretty smart hard-working girls

because i'm so lazy.
they expect me to do all this work.
i don't do it.
i'm pressured to do it coz all the other girls do.

it's also frustrating to see some girls pull down our glorious school name.
i won't have someone running for prefect who's convinced our school is 'fucking shit' and wishes she could go to some whatever school

BECAUSE I TELL YOU ONCE I TELL YOU AGAIN
hornsby girls really is the best :)
for me.
should be for you too.

we are all (mostly) such lovely people.
and the rest are still lovely rotten bitches. note the prescence of lovely.
lovely meaning we can all suck it up and get along.

i get the feeling my life is getting nowhere.
my life is like my short stories - it has no direction.
i need a grounding of some sort. nah co-dependancy is fucking pathetic.
but it has been sort of depressing these days.
and my attendance rate is fucking shit.

rather than being one of those quick learners who can memorise + recite easily
i wish i had more in the effort department
i'm so fucknig lazy and i can't bring myself to do any work
like
esp for maths and spanish LOL
i suppose if i tried i would do okay.
but i don't want to. i hate doing things i don't want to so i never do it.
that's an unhealthy philosophy- one cannot live merely doing what they want to do.

... but i can get away with it so i do it anyway. that's fucking conceited but i don't envy myself at all.
another confusing thing is me being bright? ????
i am just a carrot.
i have never really thought of myself as anything
but stiflingly average.
i was pretty below average in primary.
painstakingly average in every sense and aspect. so dull and AVERAGE.
FUCK MY LIFE.
eh. i want a ps3.

another thing worth of note:
as you all know i am not of a very affluent background.. anymore.
we are very pov.
my uniform is no less than 8 sizes too big.
it is like a 32-34 or wahtever.
i am a 24-26.
my mum won't buy me a uniform that fits me because she says its too expensive.
i'm worried about being a dag at semiformal coz i can't buy pretty and pricey dresses.

today my dad came home with a 50" HDTV, a brand new computer which has all these impressive specs, a 1TB external hard drive, norton anti virus

all of which cost at least 2k.

where the fuck did we get the funds for this?

..



they wouldnt even buy me one of those little laptops tht i can take to school and write notes when i'm at places
those are like 200$ if you use the tax rebate.
wtfuck?
so am i meant ot be delighted or upset and pissed off?
i'm confused.

you know i was just starting to think
yay we finally got a hdtv and now i'm thinking...
LOL.... we're the last ones to get one.
like. every house i go to they have one and i just.. kinda took it for granted that everyone has one but us..
coz i don't watch tv..

yeah.

私がもう少しきれいだったら

I AM NOT THE LAST RESORT.
OR TO BE USED AS THE RESERVE OR THE BACKUP
K THX




on the other hand i am lacking material. inspiration.
ta ta ta ta what kitsch shit my stories are.
so trite and insincere!
I NEED FUCKEN INSPIRATION

okay my food tastes like shit.

fuck women's rights, i'm going to go make a sandwich



lol japanese version of mister by kara.
i didnt know 'jakku' was a japanese word too HAHA seriously some parts are exactly the same as the korean one










like seriously i love goo hara.
she is never.. not super hot.
Height: 164cm
Weight: 43kg

and like taller than me and .. really skinny o_o
oh to be a k-pop star

the art of what?

yeah yeah yeah so like yeah


TODAY I AM HAPPY BECAUSE
i met eden on the way back from school.
was awesome coz i havent seen her in ages
she was the one who convinced me to go back to hornsby
8)

WEHWOEHAWOEA.

uh.
she also told me my jersey name should be seagull.
coz on the first day of yr7 her and jackie caught the bus with us
yeah 8)
i wouldnt tell them my name but they knew it started with a c so they called me c-girl. then jackie was like lol it sounds like seagull.
so yeah seagull it was 8)
paying homage to the seniors who showed me my ropes is fitting, no?

yeah she also made me realise that
there is a world out there to be conquered
that i don't not have a future 8)

oooo tis a big oyster to be eaten!

my school attendance is fucking shit and the teachers are actually noticing.

how can you not fall in love with this guy?

this is the first time i've watched a drama since like.
yoinks. bro, i didn't even watch bof.

joo sang wook is that hot. like his EXPRESSION MAN.
NAILS ME.
yeah the drama is called 'giant'. it has every famous (but old) celebrity you'll ever know.
quality fucking acting.
not this 'i have big eyes i'm cute' rubbish people chuck around.

oh man the plotline *0*
and hwang jung eums gorgeous plastic face just puts the icing on top.
JOO SANG WOOK IS THE CUPCAKE.
FUCK HE'S SO HOT
but he's not a photo person.
it's his expressions and.. so-called 'cold' demeanor that makes him so FUCKING HOT.
i was going to slit my wrists and die of jealousy when sewon told me he kisses her
but when i saw i was like.. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT.
as sewon put it
it's like
[12:49:37 AM] snowemik: i'm going to place my mouth on top of yours
[12:49:45 AM] snowemik: and give it a slight suck
[12:49:52 AM] snowemik: cause i'm an octopus

eugh.. gross..
no passion or love there at all. (OFC, HE MOVES ONTO A BETTER MODEL)
I WANT HIM TO CARRY ME OFF TOOO :(
GYAHHHAWOUFHOSDFUWEJLIFDSOFSDF *0*


anyways fuck i hate routine.
and monotony.
the blurring of my days into one single colour.
i need variety. i need more. i need .. change.
because this is turning into a cycle that i am not comfortable with.

two rhinoplasties, a blepharoplasty and perhaps a jawline scrape when i've got balls enough pl0x.

you are my friend stop bitching about me it hurts
the hell is wrong with you
why the fuck am i having to ask this of someone who is meant to be my friend?
oh, my fucking mistake.
never the fuck mind.

non, je ne regrette rien

not cuz of the excursion that was shit lol
i was so let down.
tankobon cultural centre?
what does that suggest about the place?
that it is classy? large? formidable?
yeah well we went it was in a shitty school full of dumb bogans who scream 'ni-hao' at asians and the other school that went with us were like
illawarra grammar school kids from fucking wollongong who couldn't string together a sentence in japanese.

they were meant to find people on our level, not people who were on my level when i was in bloody year 9.
man i felt so smart near them.
the whole bogan surroundings made me a very pessimistic stuck up, proud-to-be-asian bitch.

THE BEST PART OF THE DAY WAS AFTER THE SHITTY EXCURSION.

running to the train.
taking photos in the bathroom and at the train station
you have no idea how pretty it is in holes.
there are no people.
there is just.. really nice.. recently built things..
it is so nice.

then the train ride
then the walking in circles at central coz rachel gave us wrong directions
then going in the right way because i decided i would lead the party (SORRY I LUV U RACHEL)
then using a 2$ coin on the capitol machines (they only accept $1 coins)
the mango, pink grapefruit sorbet, caramalised popcorn, green tea, lycheenrosepetal flavoured icecream
the k was BRILLIAG. 15 DORRAH FOR LIKE AN HOUR AND A HALF
pepper lunch.
6.30 pomegranite juice
going home to eugenie's house
ha eun and genie 'bitching about me'
playing ffxiii for like 5 hours
grovelling at the superior graphics of the playstation three displayed on genie's huge television.
appreciating the intricacy of the design and the mechanics of the gameplay of japanese rpgs
eating old gold dark chocolate, cheese, crackers and icecream at genie's house

that was all brilliant


EUEHESKFSFES :D:D:D:D

i've been having too much fun recently.
thursday what was good

- megan eating maccass. that is some sight to watch. like seriously nobody can do it like megan
- laughing while eating.. dno what we talked abot. genie and megan are funy
- cream and strawberry boost: the verdict is, the cream and strawberry ratio is uneven. there is not enough strawberry, an obnoxiously large amount of cream in proportion to the strawberry thus making this chat .. grainy... yeah nvm not getting it again i'm sticking to my usual strawberry squeeze
- inception
- joseph gordon levitt
- the chat chinese guy that kept staring at us on the train
- edith piaff

here are some quotes from some of my favourite scenes


Cobb: For this to work, we'd have to buy off the pilots...
Arthur: And we'd have to buy off the flight attendants...
Saito: I bought the airline.
[Everybody turns and stares at him. Saito just shrugs]
Saito: It seemed neater.

Arthur: Quick, give me a kiss!
[She kisses him and then looks around]
Ariadne: They're still looking at us.
Arthur: Yeah, it's worth a shot.

that was when i decided i have a massive crush on joseph gordon levitt.
THAT WAS SOME AWESOME CHEESING. LOVE.

Mal: You're waiting for a train; a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can't be sure. But it doesn't matter - because we'll be together.

Ariadne: Why is it so important to dream?
Cobb: Because, in my dreams we are together.

Mal: I'm the only thing you do believe in anymore.
Cobb: I wish. I wish more than anything. But I can't imagine you with all your complexity, all you perfection, all your imperfection. Look at you. You are just a shade of my real wife. You're the best I can do; but I'm sorry, you are just not good enough.

GAIUFHSDF IT WAS SUCH... A DELICATE MIX OF LIKE
action, sci fi, mystery, romance, .. mission impossible stealth, high class hotel shit, uni life, spanned so many different cultures, corporate things, artsy escher shit, dreams
FUCKING UNICORNS ITS GOT EVERYTHING (no not really)

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1375666/keywords





i will date you if you can dance this.
who would want to date YOU?
STFU I WAS JUST MAKING A POINT OKAY?



i think my friends' super obsession with shinee
(namely megan ha eun.. various other koreans)
have rubbed off on me. before they were just like meh.
yeah they're not bad. they're not brilliant either.
now i've been noticing their live performances are actually brilliant.
like wow. i'm blown away.
taemin is actually not bad at singing either.
now if you ask me my opinion on shinee i'll be like
샤이니? 존나 멋있어~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 꺄~ x3

yeah lol :)
music-wise... i'm still waiting for the tingtings to release their next album..
their first album was so good o_o
like no joke it was one of the rare ones where you like pretty much every song.

strawberry & cream smoothie... ahhh

(L)


FUCK I LOVE STRABRIES

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahhhhh
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahhhhh
fml legal studies
uhm my work.. is okay.
my short stories.. are coming along.. cliche...
my social life.. is .. going down the gutter?
actually my social life is continuously flowing into the gutter.. it ebbs and flows.. like a continuous stream of thought

how poetic.
i can't wait until next term
i can't wait until.. until i'm all married off with nothing else to do but .. what i want.
actually
i can do that whenever
i am biding my time.. for.. the .. 'opportune moment'

LOVE ME SOCIETY.

you are so easily influenced why can you not hold your own?
there is nothing more respectable than holding your head up and sticking to your own beliefs and morals.
find them and keep them but make sure they're the right ones.
kitsch son of a bitch.

RADAR

yeah chime but i was just watching giant..
the lame korean drama..
well i was only watching it because the guy in it was really hot

joo sang wook.
i'm going to look him up when i get home BUT SERIOUSLY BRO.
i was eating breakfast then i was like WAITASEC.
HOLD UP.
WHO'S THAT GUY HE'S KINDA CUTE.

yeahhhh k-actors... that's more like it :)
yeah i got home.
okay he kind of has an older guy image but..
WHATEVER I DIG IT. most of his pictures aren't that great though.
WHATEVER HE WAS REALLY HOT IN THE DRAMA. that's why he's an actor.
but i cbf watching giant
seriously though. my future kids would thank me if their dad looked like that
*0*

tubblelwots

yeah fuck me i wish i was super rich
and i could buy whatever i want
and go out every day.

don't we all?
yeah fuck you.

im up late writing legal studies speech
i hate how capable i am.
jk not to be so bold but you're stupid.
so stop pretending you're all peacock-like and stuff because....
unless you're a ruse and can dazzle me i won't take off my hat to you.

HOMAGE TO THE SEWON.

i got sewon approval on my short stories.
and rachel approval.
soon i shall get cj approval.. :(

and then you may all enjoy
the pastiche of atrocities that is my writing :D

man i'm so fucking wasted

You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear

you know, perhaps i should blog about more personal things

like i used to.
you know, the shit nobody really cares about?
not that anyone cares about any of this shit i've been posting recently anyway.

well nowadays my life has been a shitball.. rolling down a shit hill.. accumulating more shit.. and stuff.
i am no longer as young as i was!
i sleep a fuckload more!
onemanga is closing down! where will i read naruto now?
and i know people generally shun naruto and i shun most manga too.
but naruto. seriously omg i don't even give a fuck if the plotline goes down the drains (which it has not, this weeks was really good. well. one page of it was. the rest was rather overdone but the emotion got through. which was the most important part)

it is vital to appreciate manga as an artform.
the delivery of the story as well as the actual artwork.
the characterisation the specially chosen dialogue the effects the..
i dont know shitfuck yeah whatever.

basically once naruto is finished i'll be like o_o
like ha eun when fullmetal alchemist finished (WHICH I THINK WAS BORING)

BACK ON TOPIC.

tomorrow. tomorrow i am fucked.
on monday there is a locus exam i am set to fail.
i'm really bad at math, no joke.
tuesday there is a legal presentation of which (sorry)
i did the work for.

i'm being a bitch but groupwork is a pain in the fucking arse when you're paired with someone relatively useless.
that was really bitchy thank god not everyone knows who i was paired with.
but it really gets frustrating doing groupwork by myself and compiling a presentation and speech and researching all by my self.

and then that person gets to take my credit ^^

because we're individually assessed and she has to take some parts of my speech right?

==

and i've been eating midnight snacks too oft.

in the past three days at 12am i've had
6 hashbrowns
a kfc meal
approx 300 grams of nutella
various bobs of korean food.

yeah fuck me this lifestyle is fucked i'm going to try fix it .. sometime soon.

i'm also not looking forward to yearlies coz im fucked.

fuck fuck fuck?

i'm tempted to go to a psychologist and be diagnosed with like 2384324 things and then say i can't do any more work coz it might drive me to commit suicide.
then again i have too much pride to let me fall to that level of mentality.
faith with fortitude.

btw 4minute sucks. except for their dances. and i like i my me mine and hot issue .. sort of.. and bahbahbah.. but that's all..

their i my me mine dance is wicked.. for the first half :)

in spite of myself i will admit kangin looks like a fat dad now.
these are back from when he used to be hot.
(i'd still marry him though)
his highschool picture isn't so hot BUT I WAS LIKE OMGOD.
I HAVE A CRUSH ON THE KANGIN OF .. how many years ago.
cuz he's still hotter than any guy I KNOW...




GOO HARA FROM KARA IS SO HOT.
she's like a doll.
and she's only had her eyes nose and teeth done once.
she was pretty cute before she had them done too.
from today all my idols shall be plastic.
like forreals she is so hot.
and i respect that she can openly admit she has had work done
unlike those other fags who are sporting noses with silicon bulging out saying
oh no i haven't had any work done...... >_> please believe me when i say that!
omg this is so upsetting! what will my mother say?! oh noes ><

idno who this guy is but he looks hot in the last photo so yeah.

why aren't any of these guys my age?
(and in the same country?)
man australia sucks in terms of hot asian guy supply.
jk jk jk ily

This is another one of my 'I just had an idea but I forgot and then I remembered it again then realised I had that same idea a couple of years ago' mo

ments.

yeah. screw korean guys.. or maybe not.. actually yeah screw them for now
when i grow up i'm going to marry a canadian guy.
or a japanese guy. and we're gonna have super cute halfies.
WOOP WOOP.
dewd. hayden christensen mannnn.

so basically it's been proven time and time again that all the asians i idolise are more or less completely plastic.
yes, that includes ayumi lee who is the hottest girl in the world...
and park si yeon... who is also.. really hot..
and go ara.. who is relatively hot..
and my ex future husband miyavi (WHO WAS SUPER CUTE BEFORE ANYWAY)
MAN I THINK I JUST RE-GOT A CRUSH ON THE MORE ASIAN-LESS-EUROPEAN-LOOKING MIYAVI.
so yes.. this is what i spend my days doing..
i look at beautiful people who used to be not so beautiful and think

' one day i will be just like them '




THIS IS AYUMI LEE. SHE IS ONE OF MY IDOLS. I HOPE SHE DOESNT TURN ALL PARK SI YEON AND RUIN HER PERFECT FACE FOR A PERFECT NOSE THAT DOESN'T SUIT HER.

THIS IS THE GUY HA EUN HAS A MASSIVE CRUSH ON.
KAMENASHI KAZUYA. when she's 25 i bet there'll be a handful of em ;)

this is miyavi. can you believe it? apparantly so. he's cute.. minus the hair :0

eyes + jawline + ??

my mum likes han ye seul. i think she's a pinhead. a hot pinhead.
WHO IN MY OPINION LOOKS JUST LIKE KIM HEE SUN.


SEE LOOK. SHE'S SO HOT ON THE LEFT. why.. WHY



and that's where she started

this is the girl from.. that drama my-girl. lee da hae?


THIS, ladies, is perfection. LUKE SKYWALKER <3>

edit: okay it looks like i'll just be browsing hot people all day today.

HANDS UP IF YOU THINK THIS GUY IS HOT? (me!!!)

ladies and gentlemen, this is superficial shallowness at its best :)

well overdue post..
lately i don't say anything much
spose i've turned into a marginally quieter person.
i'll post up my short stories and shit sometime maybe..
anyways
that music video, i was just bored sitting procrastinating today then i remembered it and i suddenly had an urge to watch it.
i like that music video because it reflected a lot of my childhood too.
i like the way it depicted life.
mine was a lot like that too, minus the boy parts like sports and magazines and girls.

it all started so perfectly you know? everyone was happy.. birthday cakes and everything.. then well. shit goes down the drain no?
if something is perfect it can only get worse right?
my life has been a series of bad turns since then- a series of bad turns with a lot of good consequences :)

yeh im real artsy n shit so like FUCK MEH

http://prudence-stewart.tumblr.com/post/809717170/hairytesticles-thecoloredpicture#notes


there is something very beautiful
at the same time very haunting and sad
about that.

disenchanted. timeless.

it is like that foetus is now forever impervious to age illness or anything else
and it is there frozen in time inside that bag of placenta.
it is so very pretty o.o

i wonder if asian foetuses look like that too.. LOL JK :)

but oh man..

i keep forgetting this so

i must document it somewhere.

when i grow up i would like a small blue or black star to cover up this ugly spot i have on my arm.. this aint no normal spot its like a cancer spot.
i should get it checked up by a doctor but my mum's too cheap and cbf so i don't think it'll ever happen. in fact if i die of cancer let that be my blimmin' cbf mum's fault and mine for failing to take the initiative to walk to the local clinic just in case.

i would also like a tattoo of a fish or something.
something holy yknow :)

SYNC- CONNECT10

IT WAS AWESOME
IT WAS BRILLIANT
IT WAS YUMMY
IT WAS FUNTASTIC
WOHSDOFDSFSDG.
i'm still starstrukk!

i'm so glad i went :)
we all learnt so much!
and got to know all these people :D

!!

it went by so quick.
it still feels like monday..
the fact i haven't done any homework hasn't really hit me yet..

EMERGENCY : SOMEBODY SHOW THIS TO SEWON

ok if you cut the bullshit (which is half of it)

you will see.
see it?

YES. YES THAT IS HIM.
THE GUY SEWON WAS OBSESSING OVER FOR ABOUT A TERM OR SO.
YES THAT IS HIM.


WHO
KNEW
HE
COULD
SING?

on par with those stars from cnblue and 2am and kim jong gook
and lesser singers like jessica (who i think sucked.. but the taeyeon redeemed her by singing in what i thought was pretty good english for a fob)



i love 2am

homnomnom oh yeah bebbeh so delishus.

there is something very 'rain' about their dance movies.

i think its the forcefulness / movement of their entire bodies.

he doesn't dance here but his voice is AMAZING.

GIVES ME GOOSEBUMPS

OH FUCK YEAH

i love his gangsta hat. ooooo boy (L)

and 2pm are also amazing live.

i wonder what it must be like going to one of these shows

must be fantastic.

some of the guys there are actually REALLY REALLY HOT.

something cameras make look not-so-hot tho ;d

the not-so-hot but irresistably cute 2AM!

i would date them just because they are SUCH AMAZING SINGERS.

LIKE SERIOUSLY YOU HAVE TO AGREE WITH ME

THEY'RE FUCKING EXCELLENT

guy with glasses in green hoodie - 완전 내 스타일이야~ ><

they're so

INDIVIDUALLY TALENTED

LIKE IM FORREALS THIS IS WHAT A BALLAD BAND SHOULD BE OMG (L)

except for that guy that keeps trying to act cute.. like a girl.. eugh.. it kinda freaks me out.

dno if it gets the girls in korea.. certainly doesn't get me.

(and epik high's what an awesome band should be)

when i was nine i wanted to be one of those girls

..

they were like. THE COOLEST. then i found out their eating habits and was like K CANNOT DO DAT ONE.

brb gonna watch the 2am video again *0*