and so i stopped.

greed is a fat demon with a small mouth and whatever you feed it is not enough.
so i stopped.

haha i didn't go to school today.
you know you're sick once your blue pen turns red.
that's what i told them =]

i watched half of CJ7 today.
man that boy's such a bitch to CJ7, i mean, just coz something happened in his dream, he expects it to happen in real life.
thats fucking stupid. he even beat up that poor fella for it.
that's just like me shooting eugenie just coz in my dream she tried to suffocate me with boiled eggs.
maybe if HE was in my dream and a million dollar cheque somehow shot out of his ass
and in real life it didn't happen, does that mean i can cut up his rectum and search for that stupid piece of paper? or try submerge his head in the toilet coz im angry?
NO IT FUCKING DOESNT.
.. or is it just me that's weird?
it must be me.

im sorry im such a bitch. ):

CJ7 is the toy of my dreams.
it is not to be fucked with.

relax, take it eaaaasy

today i nearly got run over by a car.
i was waiting to cross the street with nicole and her house was just across the road
but stupid crazy drivers speed just coz there's no speed camera.
they never seem to stop coming
PHOOM PHOOM PHOOM . after a minute or so i got sick of it
and when i saw the road was quite clear i decided to cross.
coz you know, yeji and megan said i don't needa by scared of cars.. right?

and then i heard the screeching of brakes.
too bad i didn't stop walking =/
when i looked back after i crossed, i saw that nicole had crossed with me.
the driver was pissed off lol.
his fault he was driving so fast =]
it would have served him right if he hit me.
nicole lives 8 minutes away from me
i am so fucked this weekend.

e m o

getting up in the mornings is getting harder and harder.
someone taped my back to the mattress, i swear.

i don't hate school.. do i?
i'm such an idiot. i get so.. envious easily o_o
and compare myself to everyone and everything.
cz.. i was taught like that.
going to school is.. confronting in that manner.
it makes me question myself and think stuff like
.. now why aren't i smart like that?
is everyone talented except for me?
how come she's so skinny?
why are they so _______?
am i really alone?
what exactly am i good at anyway?

i'm a .. tryhard o_o"
thinking all this makes me psycho and i just HAVE to be better than them.
so i try. hard. sort of. then i eventually realise i cbf.
i'm too lazy. so i'd rather retreat into my little sanctuary of a room and never come out.

im just not enough. says the inner emo

quoteth once more

I do not want people to be agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them. - Jane Austen

but..

“It’s not okay to hate anybody.”—Atticus (pg. 246)

spot on, oh great masters.

Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it. - Ellen Goodman

i just love pessimistic quotes

Wise men learn more from fools, than fools from the wise - my fortune cookie today =D

my inescapable doom

mood: emo
status: bracing self for school

SAVE ME. SOMEBODY.
i.. i .. i don't want to go to school :'(
not now, not ever... not yet ..
NEVERRRRR
yearlies. assignments. stress. peer pressure. socialising. teachers. etc.
i don't wanna grow up either. i like sitting here doing nothing =[
wahh

no, i don't miss you(s).
not yet.. wait, why would i ever miss YOU?

oh yeah. i was playing one of my brother's games - world ends with you,
anyhow. in this cute little scene, Joshua murders the main character with a gun.

... i thought it was a paint roller.
and he had that crazy look on his face so i thought he was going to uhh..
smack him on the head or shove it in his mouth and kill him or something..
then i saw him shoot with it and i was like o_O"
japan must have the wackiest paint rollers in the world.
what a wonderful world this is

Great DJ

the ting tings - traffic light =DD

don't you be a traffic light
don't you be a traffic light
with all things said you turn to red
don't you be a traffic light

and don't you be a round-a-bout
no not another round-a-bout
we've come so far yet back to the start
don't you be a round-a-bout

oh now baby don't miss read the signs
if you turn the key then things will turn out fine

lets not have a break down
no not another breakdown
you're on your own a long way from home
lets not have a breakdown

don't miss read the signs
if you had just turned the key
then things would have turned out fine
you're pushing me, you're breaking, over taking me
you're racing, first placing me
not chasing me back home

don't let me down

i always openly rejected the idea that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

well i still think its bullshit but when the thing you're missing comes back

for me.. well i get really really happy.

i'm not sure if this counts but i love my ps2. beyond words, trust me.

i can sit there and burn a week with my darling.

and.. recently it broke so i was like.. ohh psht. i got a ds and i can just buy me another.

BUT TODAY IT WORKED AGAIN

YAYAYYAYYA

i was so happy i felt like i was about to vomit blood and start frothing at the mouth and roll on the floor.

that's how happy i was =D

and then she was like, whoa and i was like, totally.

one without knowledge lacks even the knowledge to be ashamed of themself.
just like how fools are too foolish to realise they are fools.


so just go foolishly fooling around in your foolish ways with your fool pals, you foolishly foolish fool.

like, whoa man.

it's my bro's bday today!!
yayayayay.. not.
we're all getting old. and wiser.
unfortunately you only seem to get cockier every time you shove your face into that cake.
blueberry shortcake, darling what the HELL were you thinking?
there's mango, strawberry and all the other nicer alternatives
what the hell made you want BLUEBERRY on your SHORTCAKE?
bloody idiot.
enjoy your 95$ present.
bastard.

i spoil you i swear - jack