5am

i am up because i am on an energy high fuelled by whale chips
my arm fat is expanding
i think i've eaten about a kilogram of chocolate
and a decent amount of caramel too
and a few litres of aloe
big bags of corn chips

instead of studying for jap ext i was reading pygmy
i think i'll buy it

such joy

opening the box was probably the best feeling

then it was the badum badum fuck if it doesn't fit

and it did

then it was

walking around the house in them

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss today is good day. (lol, what exams?)

talking to myself again ahhhhhah

note to myself : i will never buy another pair of shoes. this year.

NO MORE.

one day one day one day i'll realise that i am truly alone so it won't matter what i say

say because there is no reason not to but in saying so it gives it solid, tangible form and confirms the existence of something i'd rather deny and pretend never happened

yes it never happened happened happened
but seriously no more shoes.

jokes on mee, bruh


so o o o o o i want to play

i am a materialistic pig

roast me on a spit i taste consumeriscious
yuck that was not even a pun

but seriously this week i have gone.. shopping.
done a bit of notes.. for belonging and module a (end.)

i got my first opi nailpolish (big apple red) and i feel as if my quality of life has exponentially improved. i also feel like throwing away all my other nailpolishes that flake and shit.


what else did i do? sleep a lot.
wow it's 6.30 friday and i dogged my friends because i felt sick and i thought i'd start getting some solid work done at home..

and then gmarket happened to me.
they have mac lipsticks there for 6$ where they chop them up into 1cm/.5cm pieces and put them in glass tubes so you can try them and stuff

i think that's what i'll do for shades that i want that were limited edition / things i doubt i can pull off like russian red

the red i have is lady bug but it looks kind of like sauce on me.
sort of..

6$.. that's like.. lol lunch? lunch or lipstick?
LIPSTICK.

this is a bad sign.

starting off my holidays with a bang

evry day im studyin'

jaoke mbord
so.. $AUD fell below parity like.. yesterday/yesterday yesterday. ruined my week.
NOW I CANT BUY SHOES FRMO AMERICA. WELL ICAN BUT IT COSTS ME $10 MORE.
THANK GOD I BOUGHT MY LIPSTICKS ALREADY.







IDNO Y BUT ITS 1AM AND I SUDDNELY FEEL ALL ENERGISED/ WHY AM I NOT LIKE THIS IN THE MORNING?

need a dress

you know how they say koreans would be nothing without their circle lenses?
i disagree.

i'm starting to think it's fake eyelashes o_o


needa get me some of that..

:(

MANN I WISH I HAD MONEY

http://www.matchesfashion.com/fcp/product/Matches-Fashion/just-in-for-women/alexander-mcqueen-AM-B-274717-QK019-dresses-PLUM/49749?qxjkl=tsid:30065|cat:0RpXOIXA500

ohwells, i got nobody to impress :(

also, today on the bus i was standing next to this australian / european looking guy right
and he took out his phone and started talking rapidly in a foreign language
and i was like oh must be greek or something until i thought it sounded a bit familiar
so i turned down my music and he was actually talking in fluent japanese.
this white guy with his head shaved who was watching movies on his ipod

BLOWN
OFF
MY
FEET.

was so impressed.
his accent was SUPERBBBB too

one day i'll be able to read and produce things like this :(

was watching brave story again coz im a loser

どうせならもう ヘタクソな夢を描いていこうよ
どうせならもう ヘタクソで明るく愉快な愛のある夢を

辛い時 辛いと言えたらいいのになぁ
僕達は強がって笑う弱虫だ
淋しいのに平気な振りをしているのは
崩れ落ちてしまいそうな自分を守るためなのさ

STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE

why did i pay for a +1 to formal
we all know i know like. three guys. none of them eligible.


awkward moment when you full plan on asking this other guy right.. only to find out he's taken.
awkward moment when you realise how fucking stupid that was in the first place LOL
so much for spontaneity aye

fffuark.
looks like i'm just going to have to ask mr faggot here.

daily dose of low self esteem

because i'm emotionally fragile :(


GOD WHY AM I SUCH A LOSER.
O_O

I
AM
SUCH
A
LOSER IT IS DEPRESSING

i made loser as big as i could for dramatic effect. that is how big of a loser i am.
k going back to my hole now.

what kept me going

4am and was stoned
i nearly pissed myself laughing
there is something about korean swearwords
that is really alarming and harsh LOL

http://jysc07.blog.me/140137008372

is he just FUCKING HOT or what

his hair is a bit meh though

私にもあんなことがいたらいいな...

It seems like all the good things pass me by
Story of my life
Looking out the window
Weww.

futurama is mai lyf

so what if i failed legal
(legit fail btw... like you have no idea.. worst exam i ever sat)

it's alll the timetables fault D< 4 exams in one week is not ok :(
not ok for my brain:(

futurama is my favourite tv show

chillin.. with my bros..

after getting absolutely fucked on by the english exam i downloaded all of invader zim and futurama.

so far i'm just watching futurama. such nostalgia.

yeah.. time to start on legal and eco and stufff.. so i wont like.. fail..

after this one season.

lololol GOOD JOKE GOOD JOKE!

my handwriting today was pretty tragic

not that it isn't usually appaling

but that was pretty tragic.

also the paper thing i got confused and i was too panicked about time so one booklet i only used one side coz iw as lke OMG OK FINISHED ONE PAGE OK OK NEXT NEXT


my rushing meant my points were kinda shit and rushed o_o
also my response to the FIRST BLOODY SHORT RESPONSE QUESTION WASL IKE WTF
WHERE IS MY FREE MARK Y U GIV ME 3'S?
and my long response was dodge and short because i was running out of time (or so i thought

my essay i skipped an entire para lololo
my creative.. didn't link much to the stimulus.. much...

i finished with 10ish or so minutes to spare in which i went back through my booklets and fixed the most illegible words.

story of my life brah, in short i don't expect mch
i think it is not a good sign for me to be this 'not givign a fuck'
but it saves me the bother of actually giving a fuck so WOOT



study tune of this exam

i'm falling down

TROLOLOL

my desk on saturday - english book, random poem on the side, sewon on skype, winnie the pooh cup, teapot


as of this moment... seown on skype.. three more cups of miscellaneous beverages (winnie the pooh cup is cut off) teapot (NEW TEA) and the piles of paper are, module c b and a

ready and raring to go! such fun!
fml fuck just let me die quickly

when it rains it pours

FML WHY DOES THE WORLD PISS ON ME THUS
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK MY LIFE
FUCKkkkkkkkk

BACK THE FUCK OFF!

(is the name of a really nice pair of shoes)

BUT SERIOUSLY OMG DO YOU WANT TO RUN ME OVER SCHOOL?
BACK
THE FUCK
OFF.

i hate school o_o
not school necessarily, but i hate the people in school.
like mr karnups who is a stupid douchebag and though i hate ms black down to her ovaries i'd prefer her over him because at least then we might reach an understanding that i'm not some tb demon child and that she's not some stupid irrational psycho bitch

i also hate ms sexton for thinking she can manhandle students just coz she's a woman and a teacher. you don't just GRAB KIDS and DRAG THEM. or lean out of windows and holler at them. or grab their clothes and try take them off o_o
its fucking creepy and kimochi warui

also, my sub for english, that motherwell's class rejected, she sucks kindof and is annoying.

there, i've effectively bitched about my entire day now.
also i got my period today so i had some megatastic cramps and was going to try sleep it off when a small spider with those venomous fangs walked across my blankets.. while i was trying to tuck myself in..

and you know when you make sudden movements spiders go apeshit and suddenly start crawling RELALY REALLY FAST?
so i slowly.. gradually slipped out of bed, got a bug spray, sprayed it, then went to look for the vacuum cleaner or something long taht i could put it on and throw it away without touching the spider.

but when i came back IT WAS GONE.

i will not be able to sleep tonight :0


i also hate short guys. I HATE YOU ALL.(jokes you're cute and i feel tall) and guys that gabber. YOU GUYS LOOK FOOLISH! (i'm not joking)

lololololol

so cj what did you do these holidays

uh............... lol
i'm usedto sleeping at 4am and waking up sometime in the afternoon
i got morning class first day back
i am so

f u c k e d
lolololololol

another edith piaf fanpost

watching her perform this live made me like it 32423432x more.

let's take into consideration this is addressed to her lover who had recently passed away in a plane crash

If one day life tears you away from me
If you die and go far from me
Little matters to me if you love me
Because I will die too
We would have eternity for ourselves
In the blue of all the immensity
In heaven, no more problems
My love, do you believe that we love each other?

God reunites those who love each other


I AM SUCH A MASSIVE WUSS.

BUT SERIOUSLY.
i love edith piaf

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0g4NiHef4Ks&feature=related

i wish that had been my bedtime lullaby as a child. too bad being asian i never got any o_o

WHY AM I SO HOT?

[12:12:22 AM] Christine Jeong: bich
[12:13:05 AM] megrann: ...
[12:13:06 AM] megrann: omg.
[12:13:13 AM] megrann: fuck cj
[12:13:14 AM] megrann: why am i so attractive
[12:13:19 AM] megrann: WHY
[12:13:41 AM] megrann: ...
[12:13:46 AM] megrann: omg i really can't help being so beautiful
[12:13:53 AM] megrann: DSHGIHISGHISGDI
[12:14:05 AM] megrann: my charisma and face.. such a curse
[12:17:16 AM] Christine Jeong: LOLL
[12:17:20 AM] Christine Jeong: can i blog this
[12:17:25 AM] megrann: yeah
[12:17:42 AM] megrann: i dont mind if the world knows of this...
[12:17:48 AM] megrann: it really isn't my fault

that i'm so hot


HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOL



[12:28:38 AM] megrann: hly shit
[12:28:41 AM] megrann: just realised how hot ur dp is
[12:28:47 AM] megrann: ur hair
[12:28:48 AM] megrann: o-o
[12:28:58 AM] megrann: and ur serene candid face
[12:29:28 AM] Christine Jeong: ...
[12:29:32 AM] Christine Jeong: you are so lesbian
megrann


SO REPRESSED
HEHHEHEHE

whenever i read a story

or watch a drama
a movie, a cartoon, a whatever

その時、オレは「いいなぁ～」と思う。それから、すぐ「どうしてオレの生活はこんなにつまらないかぁ」と思われる。まんがとかえいがとか何かいい物語の主人公だったらいいな。


いいな。

i need a boyfriend.

no but seriously, why can't i be sophie from howl's moving castle. or.. or.. JUST SOMEBODY.
i wish i had a plotline set in front of me that i could follow. some greater power designed and crafted my story so that i know somebody knows where it's going.
coz as it is i'm just a driftweed. how existential of me.

i wish i had a guardian angel, or some really cool guy to take care of me like those stories.
maybe it's because i cbs taking care of myself.
i'll live with it :(

like ancient bruises

i'm awake and i feel the ache



well i went
lindt cafe today
and had ice chocolate and waffle. next time i'll have chocolate cake.
waffles were nice. ice chocolate was ok.
i agree with the general consensus of lindt cafe being nice but overpriced.


i went shopping.
nothing much to buy.
beh..


i didn't do much today in terms of productivity.
story of my week.
LOL TRIALS.

joke idc.

(i will soon)
ahahahhahaa..

but alumni day made me pretty dead seat on going to canberra
wooo :D


ruururu

hyomin and soyeon from t-ara are so pretty

yotam's party

at jotham's party i learnt how to shuffle from master dlu
(not very well, BUT I'LL GET THE HANG OF IT SOMETIME)

watched guys dance very.. admirably. (mostly yool, bene, .. this guy that kept gabba-ing.. apparanlty he goes baulko.. lol)

ummmm OH YEAH IT WAS PROBS THE NIGHT JOTHAM GOT THE MOST ACTION IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE. kissed a girl. on the cheek. she vas verrry pritty~ so i told him to try hard / do his best and he kicked me

a lot of bad photos of me.. i wish i did what everyone else does and go through them deleting.. oh wells..

we played mafia and abcd..... yeah.... and had a lot of food........ i am so not a partycat when it comes to talking.

somebody needs to give me a socialising 101 course.
i do not know what to say!
and when i listen to people talk i think they're all strange.

it's like a false sort of brightness. unless you actually are that bright. but i can't do that to strangers because seeing them doesn't make me happy!
so?????? I DONT KNOW :(
megan was like say i like your shoes (everyone was barefoot)
hahahhh...


jotham's house is really big and spacious.

grace moon is the nicest sister in the world, he should buy her a million mimco bags

cookie is so cute and warm and smart and soiefjsdog

jotham got an ipad 2

me and jo got picked up late so we accidentally intruded on this really cute family thing..

jotham's got the nicest relos i swear.

all in all, great night for jotham (SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE DRUNK MAN TRYING TO OPEN THE IPAD 2 PACKAGING, THEN PUT THE CHARGER TOGETHER IT WAS SO HILARIOUS)

and... a fun night for the rest of us.

you win some you lose some

i bort a dress


i will get it professionally tailored. just don't know a good place..
white spot is dust on the mirror

this is what i did in exam week

old photo of me last summer. i'm such a bamf

yesterday i went to bed at 2.30
i was too panicked so i fell asleep almost two hours later
then i had a nightmare that we were being assessed on completely different texts, i think hamlet and this short story and poem i'd never even read but maybe heard of
so there i was sitting an exam and writing an essay on a text i don't really remember, one i'd thought i sort of had heard of, and one i never read or anything whatsoever!
the feeling of being completely fucking fucked!
and everyone else had known except for me
yeah o_o
i woke up really disorientated and even more panicked
so in the actual exam i was like O_O O_O O_O
and to make myself feel better i had some mcdonalds. then pizza when i got home.

it's an ironic thing my dress is still too big for me.
i ought to get it professionally tailored. thing is, i don't trust the tailors around here.. maybe i should go find a really.. reputable tailor.. to entrust my clothes to.. heh..

i need a shower

but i just wanted to share with the world how good at bsing i am.

jokes. but i think i am full of shit = good at bsing
and procrastinating HOOHOO :D

whys everyone seem so happy? I'M SO MISERABLE.
and overworked.
STOP MAKING ME JELLY! WHY ARE YOU SO FREKAING HAPPY
HAPPY PEOPLE WHAT IS YOUR SECRET
jokes i know it.


it's shoes, isn't it?

black milk is reopening in like 20 minutes and..

i want this


yeah so instead of writing my conflicting perspectives essay (which every time i tried to write, my eyes just started bleeding and yeah k so i didn't)
i stalked those online shopping places
and this is what i think

etsy has some cute stuff, but the ratio from worth to shit is 1/40 so not really worth the time browsing
also it's hand made, so it can either be a bargain and w/e worth it, or just shoddy pseudo hipster shit that's actually really chat.
speaking of chat
alright, so like public opinion, okay. jeffrey campbell shoes are pretty damn nice.
but i was looking at them too, and some of them are just

dno.
fucking weird?

i think you have to be either really insecure or with too much money to actually BUY some of the stuff there.

so after
40 minutes of abuse
(i took 20 minutes to browse)

in the end i ended up not buying :(
because of my faggot conservative asian friends.

if you love me and have lots of money
please buy me these in xs

http://shop.blackmilkclothing.com/product/crystal-swimsuit

cmon mum...

jokes.

but seriously by the time i save up enough money these will be out of stock.... and production...


and i will be one devo bitch :(

my life is a cycle of devo :(

ONLY HA EUN EVER UNDERSTANDS ME

뭐야??!?!

[12:43:34 AM] haeunni: ...........................

[12:43:35 AM] haeunni: 기분나쁘게

[12:43:37 AM] haeunni: .................

[12:43:41 AM] haeunni: 그렇게 잘났어?

[12:43:42 AM] haeunni: 헐

NO SERIOUSLY, SHE VOICED THE UNSPOKEN WORDS OF MY HEART :(

AHH MY 자존심 SANGHAEFUCKINGFAILKOREAN

あきらめてもいい？

no seriously why does my life suck so much

everything good seems to be a means to distract myself from how shitty it is

jokes i'm being overdramatic

but fuck i really could use a holiday

here's a little story

so you can all laugh at my misfortune and be like hahaha thank god i'm not her

well

today started off with my alarm going off at 6.10

fml.

then when i woke up and checked my exam timetable i realised my jap speaking was in the middle of my eco exam; let's not forget roberts hates me, and there's no school today so i'll be literally telling her i can't sit the speaking exam the day before it (which is better than on the day) and she'll probably make me sit it on the spot

then there's the eco exam, which has a lot of maths and i'm not really looking forward to; all you bitches have a good snigger/snicker? here

then i just shut down and didn't want to do anything because my life is miserable and i'm fucked head to toe

then i had jap tutoring and the teacher made me do an impromptu speech off the bat

then when i was trying to get home all the buses and trains were cancelled because it's public holidays and its trackwork and nobody gives a fuck about the hills area

so i was waiting for the trainbus and assumed it would be free because that's the way they usuallly do it but then they said buy a ticket

so i sprinted and bought a ticket and missed the bus i waited 20 mins for

and had to wait another 20 minutes and the driver of that didn't even bother checking my ticket

today is a shitty day

i'm pretty fucked for exams

i just wanna be a housewife plz

arts/law is just my backup plan

seriouslay. who would wanna be a lawyer ALLL their lives... (it seems so boring)

all that paper, all that monotonous talking.

my mum was like wtfuck why are you doing arts

why are you doing a degree that'll get you NOWHERE

and i was like D: stfu bich :(

金曜日から今日まで勉強ぜんぜんしなかったの。悪いけど。

オレは、さいしょからポテーと・チップスのことが好きじゃなかった。

でも、きのう母が二つ買ってきた。オレはきょうみはなくて食べなかったが、今朝朝ごはんを食べる時食欲があまりなくて、何かスナックのような小さいことが食べたくなった。そしてきゅうに、オレも分からなくて、手がポテート・チップスをとって部屋に行った。

オレは今までポテート・チップスしか食べなかった。

オレはポテート・チップスはぜんぜん好きじゃないけど食べた。

しおからいすぎてあまりおいしくないさ。

どうして？と考え見た

しけんがあるからだ。

I was going to say exams are scary things, but someone just bashed on the front door and I'm home alone and now I'm scared shitless so I'm just going to munch on my too-salty potato chips.

when i was god

i used to be able to stay up until 4am for exams


now i feel beat at 12.40

i'm growing old :(
i don't wanna fail!

what of this fish would you wish?

things i ought to do (and have not done)

- read the 80 pages of eco we're going to be assessed on and LEARN ALL THE MATHS

- separate all the darfur conflict thing into key headings and memorise it so i can shoot it off the top of my head

- hamlet themes/characters/wahtevers MEMORISE POINTS + QUOTES

- japanese kanji+vocab.. sentence structure....s... fucking roberts

- relationships arguements + vocab

- ext eng- if on a winters night a traveller arguements, revise orlando + 2 relateds

wewf.

- man up

NORWEGIAN WOOD

seriouslayy?
seriouslyayyyy...
lol

kiko mizuhara is so hot
i didnt know she was half korean / american
AGHHHH NO WONDER SHE LOOKS LIKE CHANEL IMAN

okay that was a weird movie. 2 cute scenes where he gets her a birthday present and cake, and the other where he's like i love you give me some time (wuss) and she's like okay because i trust you but when you choose me choose only me andbAISFHSDOF omg

you're just cut because i'm fucked up and i'm still better than you.

yeeaaa my bathroom is the only big mirror in the house >_>

THANKS RACHEL BABY I LOVE YOU

the cameltoe is less visible now
it faded a tiny bit but i tried to fix it up with paint.. 8)

cant wait to wear them out sometime :D

don't i just have the prettiest face? joke.

on a trip to self-improvement, i'm going to try be a nicer person from now

which probably won't work because i'm such a nasty bitch.. joke i'm just not two faced

that makes me nasty i guess.

don't know! i'm good at being nice i just don't wanna be if i don't feel it from the SOUL

so that means i should fix my soul

i'm going to go canberra and meet a geek who is good at maths and has a sense of humour and an impressive vocabulary who is intelligent and taller than me and can open jars and reach high shelves nad protect me from wolves

i am so embarrassing to myself

sometimes when this illusion of awesomeness shatters
i realise how small and stupid i am
then there's the issue of my long-spanning memory
................... i remember every single stupid detail of every single stupid thing
like glass shards wedged into the crevices of my brain..
and i am facepalming myself again :0

i'm going to stay here in my corner fuhevah.
jokes. a period of reflective self-hatred is always healthy

kate nash

Everybody thinks that girl’s so fine,
Everybody’s like “I’ll make her mine!”
Everyone thinks she’s a bit of all right but I think that she’s not so nice!
Every guy’s looking in her eyes
Every guy’s checking out her thighs
Everyone thinks that girl’s a lady- but I don’t
I think that girl’s shady.



I’ll just read a book instead
I don’t care if we’re just friends
I can hang out with myself
I'm old enough now to pretend
I’ll just read a book instead
I know that you think she’s best
I don’t even think she cares
I don’t know what you see
There’s nothing there



Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum



But I think she’s a bitch



Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum
Bam ba dum Ba dum Ba dum Ba dum



I THINK SHE'S A BITCH

shawty imma only tell you this once you the illest~

oohhh you got spark you you got spunk

autumn things

stockings
iceblocks
cold fingers
scarves
city
regina spektor
jisun
night
lights
k-pop
electronics
hot tea
fires
sweet potato
cosy
bed
sleep
leaves
kouyou
korean shit
songs with piano in it
camps
these are the things i do when it is my favourite season- autumn
i would ignore my huge stack of homework and go out but everyone is a nerd and has a bitchload of tutoring and homework too / or they don't like me and wanna stay home

I WANNA GO KOREA NOWW OMGODDD FARR.


summer things
sugar ray
amy winehouse
bbq
beach
ugly tan
thongz
that insect repellent smell
that sunscreen smell
that warm sunny feeling
mosquito bites
miseryyy!

my life is constantly shitty

you know my brother gets more tutoring than me now? LOL
(i only get jap tutor he's going to get eng and math coz he's so fail)

and i misheard that he was going to get eng tutoring from a yr12 and i was just like.. wow.. lol are you both fucking dumb
i mean i know you ignore me a lot but WOW THIS IS SO DUMB
but yeah.. turns out that was his maths one.. nvm

my parents are both so clueless with parenting. . how did i ever - wait 8)
THAT EXPLAINS IT ALL
WOHOHOOHO.

textual dynamics

alright i could just have a big whinge about how textual dynamics is mindfuck and nothing even makes sense how can i be expected to write an essay on this

but i'll just write an essay that doesn't make sense, fuck me.
i am so fucked off my face for this exam.
my two relateds i read and analysed on saturday and sunday
and here i am 2am of the examination looking up theorists.

if i get a-range for this i am a titan.

this is why i'm hot

ext eng on monday
i am reading my first related text now on saturday!
i haven't even analysed it
then i will read my second related text annotating quotes as i go!
and then i will list my theorists!
then i will try learn my quotes
then i will try learn what textual dynamics is about!
then i will sit the exam!

i feel as if i am racing against time today
i do not like racing
i am not an exercise-person

what i think of you and what i feel for you are different things

my thighs have visibly expanded fuck me lol

1 packet of crunchy m&ms
1 block of whittakers
2 twix
2 1.5L of aloe
2 massive packets of prawn chips
4 packets of cuttlefish chips
34534534 instant ramens
1 big packet of maltesers
3 kinder buenos


lol im not even joking (except for the instant ramen part.. its probably about 4)
and this was in the past week/fortnight.
sorry, i'm not fat? say wut?
LOLL HAHAHHAHA FUCK OK NEXT WEEK IS EXERCISE MY ASS OFF AND EAT SALAD WEEK.


to add onto the list is
1 mint aero block
1 dark club chocolate block.

fuck, jap ext speaking stressed me so much.
3 minutes to prepare a 7 minute impromptu speech on the impact of technology on family relations.

really?
really. fuck me lol

what i do when i study for the eco and legal exam the next day

But in a way, I didn’t feel that bad for him. You can’t make a ho into a housewife, and when you take one out on a date, you aren’t helping your chances. I guess some guys never learn.

to the gallows

you don't know, but that's okay
you might find me anywayy
don't you know that i
beloooong in arms with you bayyyyyyybeeee

in a town that's cold and grey
we will have a sunny day
don't you know that i
bel o o ng in arms with you ba aee bee
baeee eee beee

i do not know where does it go when it-

that seems to be my exam song whenever its cold and exam bloc.
nobody understands the pain of having to study for legal and eco at the same time.
except for maybe ming.
and sophia and stuff but they're whizzes and almost topping both anyway
and i'm just going to whinge about this rather than doing it because that's what i do best. bitch about my problems rather than actively solving them, unless it is unavoidable.

so.

monday
economics
legal
jap tutoring

tuesday
study my butt off for jap speaking / jap

weds
jap speaking

thurs
jap exam
jap ext speaking

fri
jap ext
eng speaking

monday
eng ext 1

wow i jst realised how thoroughly fucked i am
especially coz i haven't done shit for jap, and i haven't even read my ext eng relateds (i've got one though.. :)) god bless ebooks.
which just defies the whole point of being able to bring books into the examination.
fucking hypertexts.
this is so disadvantageous to textual dynamics students

apparantly i'm a really calming person!

which sounds like bs because of what a crackhead i am!
i am constantly going ABIFUDHSFOISDF OMGO IASoFJSDIFJSODF.
i'm the one who needs calming
but yes!
calling the distressed destressing? heh.
maybe when it comes to academics. (is that why people like to study with me? because of my 'i don't give a fuck hey you'll be fine just have some more noodles' attitude?)
that's about it, pretty much.

BUT STILL GNAW WHAT A NICE THOUGHT.
maybe i'll become a more zen person if i stop stressing to other people.
OR MAYBE I'M SO CHILL COZ I STRESS TO EVERYONE ELSE then what's left is this .. 허무

all-fucking-negating nothingness.

so today i spent two hours waiting for a doctor.
then i slept most of today. got forced to go out for dinner coz cousins are leaving soon..
and i'm still sick..
so basically i've done jackall for the legal and eco exam i have on monday.
:D

joy!

it's just DIFFERENT

it's so inconvenient to have nobody to scream and run to
so i just ran around in circles screaming
at/to everyone but there was no one.
in the end i just hit my head on the wall and passed out for a bit
inconvenient, see?

i would liken it to be attempting to quit smoking cold-turkey because it's such a deeply-ingrained habit
but no, fuck that :L

cuz everybody's breakin' breakin' breakin' me downn

숨이 막혔으면 해? 눈이 감겼으면 해?
너로 가득했던 가슴에 큰 못이 박혔으면 해?
어둠 속에 갇혔으면 해? 맘의 문이 닫혔으면 해?
따듯하게 입 맞추던 내 입이 피를 삼켰으면 해?
모든 걸 망쳤으면 해? 모든 길이 갈렸으면 해?
너란 유리 조각 파편에 두 발을 담갔으면 해?
그토록 다쳤으면 해? 죽도록 아팠으면 해?
그저 이 사랑이란 가면에 상처를 감췄으면 해?

너의 그 말,말,말. 그 잔인한 말. 가슴 아픈 말. 칼날 같은 말.
너의 그 말,말,말. 그 잔인한 말. 날 울리는 말. 날 죽이는 말.

fml im sick before exams
to cheer myself up i ate a pie that bled cheese.
and vomitted cheese in the microwave
it was supposed to taste amazing
too bad being sick makes everything taste like shit

megran y u so funni

my sentiment today exactly.

beauty

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0HwG-hNnwE&feature=player_profilepage

IU

so i thought i got a little skinnier, then i saw IU and thought: why do i even exist?



tonight the moon will be at its biggest in like 30 or so years.
traditionally linked with natural disasters/disturbances in the world
it was going to be awesome and romantic (all by myself)
but today it's so cloudy i doubt i'll see a moon at all. ಠ_ಠ

first name ever, last name greatest

my intelligence is seeping out of my ears
today i bought another whole block of coconut whittakers and some twix

D:

fat fat fatty!

the only french word you know is buffet!
that's not true.. i know the word croissant

you look like a hobo that's been to a soup kitchen that specialises in icecream soup.

they say the camera adds ten pounds. looks like you've eaten four.

g-force? more like g- he's fat

AHFHDSOFIsdf

so my aunt wore my 392423432 year old thongs

and she accidentally dropped them into the water..
and she wasl ike omg im so sorry sldfhgdfg :(
and i was like lol dw they were 832492384 yars old anyway and they're js thongs
and she's like ogmdoifosfdsf sorry
and she shoved 50$ into my hand and told me to buy some nice ones
y she givin me so much money fdsf/?!DSfoif???

which do i like better.. scottish fold or munchkin

nothing better to distract me from today than a bunch of super cute cats.
forever alone.



wut a cute widdol munchkin :3

CONGRATULATIONS CHRISTINE YOU HAVE SUCCESSFULLY MADE A MONKEY OUT OF YOURSELF YET AGAIN

why do i keep doing this
FUCKIT FUCK I DON'T CARE

if you ain't got no dreaaam
how you gonna make your dream come trueee

별사탕.

mitsubitchi

i love it when you flex like thissssss

joke

umm
dizzee rascal used to be so awesome.

----

my cousins are here now... preh cool... preh cool.. (a bit awkawrd..)
it's cooooool :D
i love relatives manng~
my aunt is just.. the loveliest person ever :)
my cousins are still a bit shy. they'll warm up to me :)

m60 completes my life (makes it a little less shitty)

if this be not love, it is madness, and then it is pardonable
william congreve, 'the old bachelor', 1693

supermegaawesome

so it turns out, after the earthquake in new zealand everything's fucked.
my uncle there is thinking about selling the house or w/e, it's clear it'll be difficult to live there from now.

his wife and his two children michelle and kate are coming to australia this week!
O#WRU*(SDFSODF FUCKSDFDSFIOJSDOFIDS OMGFDSGIODSJFODSFJDSOF IM SO EXCITED
DUDE

I HAVE NOT HAD / SEEN / TALKED TO RELATIVES
SINCE LIKE YR5 WHEN I WENT TO KOREA
AND I HAVENT SEEN MICHELLE SINCE SHE WAS A LITTLE BABY AND I WAS LIKE.. SIX
OH MY GODDDNESS :D
it's gonna be awesome. we're gonna talk in our kiwi accents and be kiwis.
she's gonna sleep with me though.. in my big bed... it'll be .. okay..
IM SO EXCITED!
it must suck for her though. it must be so disconcerting! I MUST ASK HER ABOUT THIS, IT'S AMAZING!
i'm going to shower her with cousinly love :)
FUCK OMG I HAVENT EVEN SPOKEN TO HER EVER
OMGOD

FINALLY CONTACT WITH AN ENGLISH-SPEAKING COUSIN
THISI S JUST AWESOME MANNN.
WE'RE GONNA HAVE FUSH AND CHUPS TOGETHA
OSFMOSDGSDOFSDFSF THE ADVENTURES WE'LL HAVE :D

the only problem i forsee is if she starts touching my shit.
if she touches my clothes shoes or w/e i will go ballistic.
i will hide all my expensiv makeup
and hope she has the decency to respect privacy
WHO AM I TO DOUBT MY LOVELY COUSIN
and i hope she's not spoilt and bratty.
i'm sure she'll be wonderful.
this is going to be so awesome manngg

my dream boy

today i went to the korean grocers with my mum

and i am like.. so ready to be a housewife. seriously.
bought everything i saw. well not really.
but i bought enough to be stocked for the next two weeks at school.
AND NOBODY CAN ASK ME TO SHARE BECAUSE NOBODY SHARES WITH ME.
except for the peopel that share with me. jokes but i'm taking a policy where those people who always scab try to scab off me i'll be like BITCH BUY YOUR OWN FOOD I AINT YOUR MUM
instead.. if i want to share.. i will offer my food.

BUT SERIOUSLY FUCKING SHITCUNT THE FUCK DO THEY GIVE YOU AT HOME?
NO, I AM NOT AVERSE TO SHARING MY FOOD BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WOULD LIKE TO EAT AS WELL. and i don't like you. so yeah. fuckoff. it's like 3$. fkn go buy it. dont' even say you can't finish it yourself BECAUSE IF YOU CAN POLISH OFF MY LUNCH, YOU CAN POLISH OFF YOUR OWN.
FAGGOT.

ok and i've bought drinks for the whole group coz im a luvly person.. jk
i'll use a cup from now..

what's with the lack of communal cups? i've been using sewons but there is another cup that looks just like sewons.. so i've just been using either thinking well nobody will mind so long as i wash it when i'm done.

ok time to eat some octopus flavored chips for breakfast :3
gotta love korean shit.

i did all my english work so today i just did jackall

"Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within."
Sigmund Freud

with regards to my arrogance

what i need is someone who will tell me off.
PROVE to me i am wrong.
to kick my ass and turn me around and make me face my shit.
i don't mean this in that they'll critique my every action and speech
but to change me as a person and reason with me and change my understanding of things.
and this is just a thought of now because i am undergoing yet another phrase of self-loathing and disgust.
do i always have to be such a freak?
at this rate i'll just alienate everyone and be left alone; like i want that.
why wasn't i born in a cave
or bought up in a society where i'd just turn into a conformist freak and just be a dumb slut like everyone else
HUWAI?

but this is what my friends are here for hm.
save me from myself!

jokes lol fuck this stupidly articulated cry for more attention (even if it is for negative attention)
i need self-improvement and since i had that thought i might as well start on myself.

so nick linked me to something cool for once, that wasn't a sc2 game replay = =

the weather

my life is in general, pretty alright.
albeit mostly gray.
sometimes it has its rays of sunlights but when it rains it pours.

when it rains it pours

ok i'm done being pmsy bitch now
fuck it all i'm goign to sleep.
i hate shoulders when they are cold.
i should just sleep. and sleep. and do some english work. then sleep again
good plan

pms

today i woke up thinking kareoke was the stupidest shit ever
obviously i am not in a rational state of mind

but seriously, what the fuck?
really? why would you want to burn your ears like that?
how humiliating it is! how stupid i am!

i have no(t many) friends
everyone should feel sorry for me jokes fucksgodfg shitall
im going to go wallow in self-pity and drown myself in english homework now
why doesnt anything ever make sense

UPDATE: i wrote 1600 words of ext eng textual dynamics essay and that's the most i'll ever achieve today.
i also wrote my report on hina matsuri in COHERENT JAPANESE WITH PICTURES so fucking roberts can get off my case
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
starting my prac letter now.

If all our life is but a dream
Fantastic posing greed
Then we should feed our jewelry to the sea
For diamonds do appear to be
Just like broken glass to me

And then she said she can't believe
Genius only comes along
In storms of fabled foreign tongues
Tripping eyes, and flooded lungs
Northern downpour sends its love

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down

Sugarcane in the easy mornin'
Weathervanes my one and lonely

The ink is running toward the page
It's chasin' off the days
Look back at both feet
And that winding knee
I missed your skin when you were east
You clicked your heels and wished for me

Through playful lips made of yarn
That fragile Capricorn
Unraveled words like moths upon old scarves
I know the world's a broken bone
But melt your headaches, call it home

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down

Sugarcane in the easy mornin'
Weathervanes my one and lonely
[x3]

Sugarcane (hey moon) in
(Hey moon) the easy mornin'
Weathervanes (hey moon) my
(Hey moon) one and lonely

Sugarcane (hey moon) in (hey moon)
The easy (hey moon) mornin'
Weathervanes (hey moon) my (hey moon)
One (hey moon) and lonely

[Continues in background:]
Sugarcane (hey moon) in (hey moon)
The easy (hey moon) mornin'
Weathervanes (hey moon) my (hey moon)
One (hey moon) and lonely

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down
You are at the top of my lungs
Drawn to the ones who never yawn
[x2]



lak seriaslay, rachel is sho kewl.
remember this song from ages back.
we're gnr metro station together in march.

things i want to buy when i go to korea

headbands
earrings
fob glasses
big bags
makeup
skincare
clothes that fit me
cute socks
shoes that fit and don't smell like plastic
nailpolish
hair treatment thing
pens and stuff
stickers
glow in the dark decals
language books
books (SO I CAN FUCKING LEARN)
a 2012 planner
anything i see that is cute
.. everything

digital camera

at least it wasn't in my mouth

today i woke up, rolled over, found i'd been sleeping on a massive ass hairy spider.
probably killed it with my fat.







so this morning i actually woke up when i woke up and literally leapt out of bed sort of screaming.


.......................... yeah...
....................................

i slept at 8pm though and i had really weird dreams.
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english is taking over my life

ms black 2#

yes this is angsty and childish but you know what i am

today at recess i went to see ms black.
she started off by saying something along the lines of
i still don't believe you / blablaba this room looked disgusting when i found it yesterday recess
and i started off by saying well i've talked to people in my class and people who left after me and they tell me we left it spotless. if you like you can ask them
also, after class we went straight to the cottage. how can you say it wasn't someone that just came in at recess? and it was cold outside, juniors just come in to random rooms any time
and she's like well i left the cottage meeting early and that's when i found the mess, are you trying to tell me that someone came in here in the two minutes i was gone, made the mess and ran off?
and i was like are you saying that we opened a packet of preservatives and made the mess when mr hindmarsh was in the room and we were actually in class?
and then she just changes the topic to something completely different
saying how she doesn't believe me, and how she's justified in thinking that it's me because i talk in class
i've been talking to people in my class that sit at various places in the room and they tell me, yes, i do talk in class, but so does everyone else, and i'm definately not the person who talks the most.
so what the fuck is this bullshit?
and then she goes on to talk about my disrespectful, rude, arrogant way of talking to people and is like yeah blablabl can you just talk to your teachers with more respect blablab you're rude etc
and i was like
well you pulling me out of class like that, accusing me of something i didn't even do, calling me a liar and then going so far as to try make me rat out my own friends? what do you call that?
and she was ilke yes, that was a bit rude but i would have treated you with the proper respect were it not for the reports of your appalling behaviour and blablabla
and im thinknig oh so because i talk in class you can talk to me like i'm your bitch is it?
but she went on to say and i'm a teacher so i'm higher than you on the school hierarchy, if you even understand what that is

and im thinking
wow
bitch who the fuck do you think you are?
yes, you are a head teacher of social sciences, albeit a good teacher from what i hear
but that doesn't mean you can just go around doing wahtever the fuck you like and expecting everyone to kissy our ass
definately not me.

so she just started telling me off about my behaviour and how im discussed int he office and how my name keeps popping up
and i was ilke well i dont understand because it's not like i'm the only one that talks in class and the people around me talk over me when i'm not talking anyway so what's the difference?
and she's like well you're mentioned more than the others so you must be really bad or some shitfuck assumption she made
and she says how it's my fault some people aren't doing as good at eco as they should be
and how i'm being rude to my entire class or some shit
she's talking as if she's some kind of omniscient prick and she knows everything that's been going on and whatever i say is just poppycock
like the red queen in alice in wonderland
and she's saying how i'm gaining notoriety in the office because blablablbal and she's spoken to some of my other teachers abuot me and blblablaal

and iw as ilke
mrs roberts? = =
well you can hardly blame us because when we're not learning anything we have nothing else to do. i have people sitting by me that are drawing pictures and playing on their iphones, you can hardly accuse me of distracting them
and she's like well i don't know what happens in japanese but blablabla

and im thinking ms roberts that cunt
at the end of last year when i was picking up ext jap and mr hatton was going around asking eng and jap department if i was competent enough to pick up the extensions, she told mr hatton i was underperforming, easily distracted and not doing so well lately.

i'm coming 4th.
1st is caroline, 2nd is gigi and monica. i'm 4th.
and carroline, gigi and monica are all REALLY GOOD at japanese.

so what bullshit is this? i don't mean to be arrogant but i am hardly 'underperforming', which leads me to believe she'll say anything about me.

ms black accused me of being 'constantly late' to class 'having a negative attitude' and being overtly aggressive when addressing teachers.
aggressive maybe so, but only to her, and what option did i have? here she is accusing me of trashing the eco room, calling me a liar and telling me i'm ruining my friends marks and i'm a wicked demon child constantly discussed in the office room. that's clearly bullshit and what option do i have but to be just as aggressive as she's being? how can i help but not be upset and REALLY FUCKING PISSED OFF THAT SHE'S TALKING TO ME LIKE THAT
constantly late?
everyone
is late to eco
i'm hardly ever the latest.
same for jap, so what bullshit is this?
this isn't even just from my perspective, i've asked other people too.
as for my attitude, she can actually suck a dick because she is the last person to lecture me on my attitude and the way i talk to people
that hypocritical white prick

and now i'm becoming more racist against white people because i talk to koreans too much.

fucking :(

i forgot what else she said but afterwards she was like so blablablabla i want you to respect your teachers more when you speak to them blablalabala stop being so rude in class or some shit and was like okay. now put this behind you and i hope you learn from this.

shocking. i was like wow so you're not even going to apologise for pissing me the fuck off yesterday with the whole trashing the classroom thing. in fact you think me talking in class just justifies your suspicion? how the fuck do you even teach legal studies? fucking ridiculous.
and she just talked in such a conceited condescending manner it was disgusting.
'condescending pig'

in short, i think ms black is a massive prick and should go back to teaching at a boys school where nobody gives a fuck about her anyway as long as she can teach.
\


i talked to mr hindmarsh after school about this too
and he said what he told her was that he didn't know who made the mess but he just saw me playing with the satchel a bit in class.
which means she just took it wayy fucking over the top and went apeshit at me for no fucking reason. fucking pmsing bitches.
and he said well it's true that i do talk a lot in class i have to agree with him, blablablaa distracting others blablablablaa.
and i was like well instead of going off adn telling ms black, why didn't you just tell me?
it's not like you've indicated it before, yes you have told me off a bit but you do that to everyone i had no idea that we were the MOST rowdiest or the MOST problematic of the classroom and he's just like blablabalbfldsfsdf yeah ok you're right blablblaa sorry i just didn't want to upset anyone but now that the cat's out of the bag i might as well say it
and i said no it would have been fine if you ahd just told me, i don't know why ms black is the one to tell me
he explained that the bitchign about me was just random things teachers say in the office like oh today blablabla kept talking
or w/e and ms black was meant to js tell me off about the mess i made but she just ended up bringing up my behaviour in class
my behaviour in class is not half bad. a pathetic excuse to justify herself.
for a pathetic person.


in conclusion, mr hindmarsh is a pussy. but a decent person.
ms black is ridiculous and blatantly fucking stupid; blind to all sense of reason and rationality or decency in general, with a suffocating sense of entitlement and expects everyone to play 'sycophant'

end.

i hate the entire social sciences staff

so today ms black took me out of jap and gave me an earful about someone trashing the eco room after first period.

she aws like
'i heard you were playing around with a sachey (sachet) in class'
i was like wth? umm.. i don't remember
and she'sl ike 'oh really. well let me go show you.'
and she shows me the preservative sachel i picked up and looked at for a bit then put down and never thought about it again.
i told her that i played with it a bit in class and i just left it there.
and she was like
oh really?
why did you bring it there what was it doing there blablablbala
and im like

it was there on my desk. i looked at it and put it down. i didn't open it.
then she was like oh, changing the story are you? and i was like what the fuck? so that means im lying? then she told me off about how i keep changing my story and im thinking well maybe its coz i don't fucking remember every fucking thing i play with in fucking eco. dipshit.
and she' was like well someone did and they put it all over the table and floor and left a mess
and im thinking what the fuck?
i tried telling her it wasn't me then she told me it had to be me because
1) i play around in eco class
2) i was seen playing with the packet.
sorry, why is she a teacher again?
i tried telling her i didn't then she called me a liar and said it HAD to be either ME or someone in my class namely my friends because nobody was there during recess.

yes, because we were ALL in the cottage at recess and so was she.
which means if it was me it could only have been done during class.
and what kind of dumbfuck is she if she thinks we'd do something like that with a teacher in the room, assuming that we WOULD do something fucking dumb like that.

in the end she told me i was a liar and i was probably covering up for one of my friends or w/e and that i had to either rat them out or clean it myself.
i told her it couldn't have been one of my friends and that this is ridiculous and unfair and if that's how it's got to go i'll clean it myself.

man she was such a fucking prick about all of this

i'm imagining going to the counseller and bitch about her and cry about how traumatised i am so she'll get some shit and laughing. too bad i'm not emo enough
dontwant to waste hatton's time over this
fucking mr hindmarsh bitching about me behind my fucking back.
mrs black may be good at teaching, but i'm assuming that's the only skill she has.

everything is happenin' so fast

time spent doing nothing goes by quick
a sign i've aged is looking back on the past and pondering things
being able to be lost in my memories
of what?

eh

its monday soon
before i know it it'll be friday again
then exams
then holidays
then hsc
then korea
then back to australia
then what?
then what?
my life will spread out in front of me and i will be required to make incisions, disect, remove and sew up whatever it is i must and i don't want to i just like this blank plain :(

OH THE SHIT I DO WHEN I DON'T WANT TO WORK.
MK TIME TO GET CRACK-A-LACKIN'
fuck hsc whatever i wanna be a dishwasher~
joke.

WHAT? I ONLY HAVE FOUR IMAGINARY FRIENDS :(

joke i quote genie.

i was going to be like 'WELL MY MUMMY LOVES ME'
but i'm not really convinced she does ahahah im so gay

but seriously womg i don't want the english department to send letters home about how i don't get my work done omg :(
LET ME BE LAZY DAMN YOUSE!
ARGH!

:(

i hate doing work. i am now working.
i don't like people being disappointed in me
farr :(


these days i've been dreaming
and then they turn into sort of nightmarish things
liek the shit i wanna write about in my ext 2
then i think WOW THIS OWULD BE A GOOD IDEA FOR MY EXT 2 MAJOR WORK
and i full contemplate it
and my subconscious shoves all these ideas and possibilities in my face
and they all seem so brilliant and wonderful at the time
then i wake up semi awake and i realise
what the fuck had i been thinking about?
... huh?

well now i have an idea.
newspaper articles to chronicle deaths.
(i woke up thinking LETTERS.. before. but now.. ?)

VALENTINES DAY :D

when im bored i think putting on one-sided makeup really fascinates me o_o
then i like to compare and see how different i look
i was trying to look like a rocker because i'm going to a concert on sunday.
the brown circle lens my dad bought me is really subtle :o my left eye looked the same as my right.. just.. my right one looked a bit more like i was buzzed ..
but i can't seem to wear lenses for more than ten minutes without thinking shitshitshit im going to go blind fuck i bet my eyes are red and veiny holy shit im going to die D:

so today i woke up a LITTLE LATE.

my hindmarsh gave us these badasses from costa rica.. wait no.. i think it was el salvador. worry dolls. these guys will keep me safe.


the disadvantage of having the 611 cancelled is that now i rely on my mum to drive me to castle towers to catch the bus to school.
today i actually got ready in time and was going to go when she got pissed at me and just drove off.
fucking bitch.

i have no other way of getting to school now that would get me there on time.
fuck she's so fucking dumb acting like a four year old like that.

she also trod on something in my room which was my bag which had my travel shampoo in it and it burst and seeped through the bag and went all over the floor and ruined everything beneath it.
fucking bitch.

yeah i just didn't go to school for two days.
everything is a bitch. whatever i don't give a FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU ALL







according to timothy delaghetto it's okay for me to be single on valentines day
:D
lol 'redweek is headweek'
i would never give head

SOK TO BE SINGLE ON VALENTINES DAY MEGAN! SOK.
TIMOTHY DELAGHETTO IS MY VALENTINES :)

whatever yeah so what if i'm a fag

i squeal while reading pride and prejudice.
is there a more definitive indicator of being a loser with no life?

:(


i bought a yearly planner today it was 5$ and is pretty shitty
but i will use it until july and it will be beautifully adorned with pictures by me and megan.

then i will buy a business moleskine :3

you're a butterfly on my brain

i think everyone should know habits i had in kindergarden.
i'd look to my extreme lefts and rights to try figure out what shape my eyes were.
when people pissed me off i tried to look as high as i could (in effect i would look like i was rolling my eyes/ retarded) into my sockets so i couldn't see them.
i had some pretty weird habits.

a growing awareness of self?

for the past few days i have been having the most fucked up dreams of angsty emo shit.
you know how writers like stephen king and mindfuck directors ilke that guy that did inception and shutter island are inspired by their dreams?

and it influences their writing?
well .. my dreams seem to have been influenced by my writing
dark korean shit with undertones of horror.
it has also escaped my notice until now how curiously shaped i am.
i always whingr about my ass and thigh fat and i realise it will never go away. not really. encased within the thick layers of fat are actual bones set that way so i can have kids.

i think it unjust of me how i really wish my kids aren't girls.
for their own sake . and girls are too much of a hassle.
it really is a difficult thing to be born a girl.

seriously? seriously.

MR DARCY IS SUCH A BABE OH MY GOD I LOVE HIM WHAT THE HELL

sniffle

wtheck i thnk i got a cold.

i got a jap tutor today!!!!!!!!! I THINK HE'S PRETTY COOL.
I WOULD LIKE TO THINK OF HIM AS MY NEW FRIEND.

I NEED MORE FRIENDS. EVERYONE'S OFF DOING MATHS N SHIT
I'M JUST BY MYSELF WRITING LETTERS TO MYSELF AND DRAWING RAINBOWS
:(
I FEEL PRETTY SAD .
I NEED ATTENTION.



i'm quite alone here. quite alone.
waiting for something good to come by . still.

girls be ambitious

i need more ambition. i am so unaccustomed to doing work or intellectual thought these days

hsc schmsc.
i should wake up from my daydreams and fantasies and realise after hsc i'll run face first into a very thick unmerciful wall.
there has never been, never will be a quick fix option for me.
i'll have to work to the bone for everything i want i guess.

i want to disappear

in the words of fay weldon

'The thing is, you need to find a man who is cleverer than you, or at least not let him know that you are cleverer than him,' she said.
'Women want boyfriends to be like their girlfriends, fun to go to the pictures with, but men are not like that. They want sex and they grunt. If you really want a man to be nice to you, never give him a hard time, never talk about emotions and never ask him how he is feeling.'
She also said women should have babies early, then go out to work, and suggested they should be less picky in the search for a partner.
'As long as you have a sort of semi-good looking, able-bodied, intelligent man, you should have his baby,' she said.



too bad semi-good looking is such a hard thing to come by these days in an ordinary man.
intelligent.
must
be
more
intelligent than me. is that too much to ask for

okay holidays have started and i'm right where i knew i'd be from the beginning of the great holidays.


it's 1.39, day before school begins and i'm completely fucked through and through.
i haven't done SHIT.

i dont know what i did in the holidays but whatever i did, it was fucking fun.
i think these were the best holidays i've ever had.
it was awesome. it was gratifying. it was amazing.
and so will the rest of my life.

im sunburnt im bruised i'm feeling 904320423432%.

i also learnt a new rule. things are at least 3x more fun when you do them when you know you're not supposed to be / meant to be doing something else.

this was an epic holidays.
i love the world.
i hate everything else.

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/schoolsong

내일은 내 생일인데...

힝 :(



파티한게 재대로 하는것도 어려워죽겠네

:(





힝~ 나 학교가기싫어

spending australia day home alone? what the awesome?
and i'm awake at 9.
that is actually a massive achievement for me

mavin moon

'ISH SHO FLUFFY!'

seriously, if fucking a canadian guy meant having babies like this, i actually would consider it.

who wouldn't?

they're so adawbz.

esp mavin moon.

but yeah my kids will probably have slanty eyes and snub noses

the postman loves me

my overalls came in the post today.
they're a size 10 so they will hide my mammoth thighs and not be skintight
woohooo.

expect to see a mario very soon ;)

NOW IM GOING TO GO RUNNIGN COZ MY THIGHS ARE FAT AS FUCK.

coz i been checkin' my list.

no homework done as of yet.
10 days left.
oh my god where did my janvier go.

so far the things i've bought are
- blonde lady gaga wig
- facial hair
- lace gloves
- bat wings
- two glow in the dark wands with stars on the end
- 40 sparklers
- normal gloves

now off to buy a batman costume.

yeahh :0

circle lens makes me look like a hamster on crack

cuz cuz you know.. my bathroom floor is GLAMOROUS






and my bathroom light makes me look really pasty

ok i'll get out now

THATS MY BABY!

어쩌면 좋아 나는 정말 너만 좋아했던
시간을 놓아버리고 싶어

진짜 미칠 거 같아
나 진짜 화가나 넌 아직 사랑을 몰라

니까짓게 뭔데

MY WISHLIST DRAFT

1. really high platform stilletos. that kinda shit that makes you 10cm taller.
size 7/7.5 i think
2. lancome hypnose / chanel inimitable / diorshow mascara... 50 something $
3. ghd straightener (so i can CURL MY HAIR LOL)
4. maxi dress
5. phone
6. rayban aviators dark lens, black/gunmetal frame
7. boox
8. ksubi grease denim
ummm i actually dont have anything i want you guys to get.

vera wang princess, britney spears fantasy smell nice.. but dont get me that.
i lost my loccitane lipbalm last friday too but theyre all exorbitantly overpriced luxury goods.

DONT GET ME ANY OF THIS STUFF.



................ :( list exhausted. i'll think of more stuff later.
DON'T GET ME ANY OF THESE THINGS. well not the shoes or the dress because people tend to pick things I DONT LIKE. IM JUST USING THIS LIST TO PLAN WHAT TO BUY.

역시

새상에서 제일 이쁜 언어는 한국어야
읽을떼마다 뭔가 시원해
어떡해 표연해야하는지 모르겠지만
올해 나도 한국어 좀 늘어야겠군
그레야 다음 봄 방학 한국갈때 알아서 혼자 돌아다닐수있겠지..
훗

나 한국가서 포브랑 사귈꺼야~
한국 요리, 언어, 남자
다 최고 :3

근데 진짜로. 생각해보면 내가 좋아한 애들은다 한국애들였어. 못생기던 눈/키가 작던 뭐던 난 무족건 한국애면 좋았어 :D
아직도 남친 찾을때 그데로 생각해. 흐흐.

THE DETECTIVE/PROSECUTOR/POLICE GUY

at 0.34

seriously.
WHO TEH FUCK IS HE
FUCK HE"S SO HOT
OH MY GOD

i love his hair.
MAN I LOVE GUYS LIKE THAT
FUCKKKKKKKK

the song is curry by norazo. they're like a comedy/mock band
I
MUST
FIND
OUT
WHO
THAT
GUY
IS.

edit: found him Jun Kwang Jin 전광진

NOTHING ON HIM THOUGH. OMG

http://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/humour/flattery.html

how i almost wasted 50$

turns out the club the party i am going to is being held at is more of a pub/bar than a night club. not much dancing going to be done. it's more high class and reserved rather than whorey.
it's known for the drinks they have.
fuck my life im not 18
:(