yeah.. um.. yeah.. so. yeah.

HORNSBY FORMAL
was okay. i think it went by quickly.
it was good, i think. but something was just very disappointing about it.
i can't put my finger on what exactly.
the songs weren't so great
the venue wasn't so great
the food wasn't so great
i wasn't so great.

rachels pres were fucking awesome though. like one of my good dreams :D
even when evelyn came bustling in with her mouth running at 1000miles per hour.

i think i just expected formal to be something so great but it was just something mediocre. like a social dinner.
the songs were pretty bad. MORE BREAKDANCING IS GOOD.
i forgot how to .. knutpush(?)

now i will return to rachels afters.
AWW I WISH I DIDNT HAVE TO MISS OUT ON TAYLORS AFTERS BUT I'D BE A LONER.
everyone have fun? :D
it sounds like it'll be epic

oh another bad thing that was rather disappointing- some idiot put mashed potato in sewons clutch. mashed potato. in sewon's clutch. she thinks its a guy that did it coz seriously no hornsby would do that. sewon's such an angel.
or maybe they mistook sewon's clutch for anothers'... bootylicious on glee is SO VERY M.

HAVE FUN EVERYBUDDY :D

FUCK YEAH BUTTER CHICKEN

FUCK YEAH YOU'RE DELICIOUS.


FUCK FUCK FUCK

today's a good day. i just ate a family meal all by myself. like, the whole butter chicken platter all by myself. and some tandoori chicken.
golly. while everyone's starving themselves and going on diets, i'm expanding the capacity of my stomach.
today i ate a whole box of cheese and bacon shapes, two packets of twix and 1L of anti nudie juice. fuck yeah.
oh the surface area of my gut.

FUCK YEAH BUTTER CHICKEN. ARGHJDF SO YUMMY.
yeah today my parents ordered indian food from this restaurant nearby coz i was like I NEED BUTTER CHICKEN OMG after i found a pamphlet in our letterbox.

you know? i dont think i'll have to wear that ugly coral dress anymore.
well it's not ugly, but it's CORAL for gods sake.
eugh.
CORAL. on me? no way.


it's like divine intervention. god's way of saying here christine, your early christmas present. you've been a good girl. you dont have to embarrass yourself at the formal anymore by wearing that hideous dress. oh and here, have some butter chicken.


THANKYOU GOD (L)
I LOVE YEH :D

ha eun went to japan . lucky scoundrel.
this time tomorrow she'll be screwing a super hot japanese guy.
possibly with manicured nails and prettier than our whole school with disgusting chick eyebrows. metros nowadays.
manly metros ftw.

heh. matsuyama my ass.

soo it's been some time hm :D

time is tickin t-time is tickin tickin time is tickin t-time is ticking away.

my time at hornsby is almost up ):
it's upsetting and unnerving and.. very scary.
the place i've known and loved for four years.
ah.

i'm going to miss it. the yellowness. the smell. the atmosphere. my friends.
we'll always have the bees knees.

and i might be moving to hornsby. MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT.

i've got my normo dress now :D :D
it's brown and made of taffeta.
my hornsby dress is freaking coral and i will look like a beached whale. or a coral elephant.

but it's okay, it's going to be the most fun formal.
coz i'm gonna make it fun :)

"Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, and a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors, once they’re opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it’s been lost, can never be won back."
— Alice Hoffman

nomatter what, you'll still always be the girl who used to be my would-be best friend.

ohhh it's such a shame for us to paarrt
i'm going back to the start
the scientist.

i could really kill for an iced chocolate at our cafe.
i hope you guys will invite me every time you have an outing. or i'll cry.
and i'll be there to order "the usual" .. or go there enough to have a usual..
heh. "i'll take the monday usual, thanks"

aww yeaah :D

i saw christian bale's ass in american psycho.
AND mike yagoobian from meet the robinsons is the most adorable IOSJFOSDFSD
EVER
OH MY GODD
I WANNA ADOPT HIM HE'S SUCH A DARLING ASUDISJDFSD.

forget about your boyfriend and meet me at the hotel room. ho.

NSG FORMAL :D
umm. also the first day of my p's.
my unborn baby being vengeful.
as you might know, the first day for me is like hell. sometimes i stay home just because of it. it's like someone stabbed a knife into my stomach and started to draw circles or something. kills. and my legs get serious muscle pain. and i get migrains.
today in total i think i took five pills.
and i can still feel it (though very slightly)

i spent most of the day going O_O OMG IM SUCH A LOSER
and being a loner. my dress was the longest out of most peoples. and it was like a garbage bag. if i shook my ass you wouldn't have been able to tell.
i spent most of the formal at the table trying to look normal because i'd run out of panadol. i took two more when i got back, but yeah, formal was painful.
jung and yool and raymond and all the other nsg's must think im some sort of anti social whore. which is a paradox i know.

sorry man. i feel so dead.

oh yeah the hummerzines were hot.

EVERYONE SHOULD GO TO THE DANCE.

i am in a state of internal disquiet.

i dont know what i'm saying.

hornsby formal is going to be so fun.
maybe i should have said i'll go to normo formal.

btw nsg's are hot.
they all looked like dolls tonight.
normos wish they were me :)

i think i'll update later.

but- hummerzine's were hot. 500$ each. took 2.
so many couples grinding.
i wish i had someone i liked. so i can dance with them and take them to formal(s).
but i don't.
jang geun suk is with me in spirit.

zzz

yes i think i'll update later.

ONELOOVE

Can Anybody Help Me
I'm Outta Plans
Guess I Left My World In Somebodys Hands
I Don't Like To Hurt But
Everyone Gets Weak
Someone To Rely On
That's What I Really Need

Now Here We Stay
It's All That Were Worth
I've Been Thru The Pain And Been Dragged Thru The Dirt Whatever They Tell You Were Bigger Than Words
I've Been Where Your Standing I Know How It Hurts
Let This Be A Song Now And This Be A Day
And We Stand Together That Will Be Okay
Because Were Survivors Were Making It Work
Expecting The Best When They Hope For The Worst

One love - This is the way we found
One love - Even though they'll let you down
One love - Nobody's perfect now
One love - Don't let that hold u down
One love - Let's stick together now
One love - We got to stand our ground
One love - It's easy to believe in
One love - Believe in u and me
Onee Loveeeeeeeee

Now I Cud Try And Fix This All By Myself
But I Know Itd Turn Out Better If U Help
No One Likes To Hurt But
But Everyone Gets Weak
Someone To Rely On
That's What Everybody Needs

Now Here We Stay
It's All That Were Worth
I've Been Thru The Pain And Been Dragged Thru The Dirt Whatever They Tell You Were Bigger Than Words
I've Been Where Your Standing I Know How It Hurts
Let This Be A Song Now And This Be A Day
And We Stand Together That Will Be Okay
Because Were Survivors Were Making It Work
Expecting The Best When They Hope For The Worst

One love - This is the way we found
One love - Even though they'll let you down
One love - Nobody's perfect now
One love - Don't let that hold u down
One love - Let's stick together now
One love - We got to stand our ground
One love - It's easy to believe in
One love - Believe in u and me
Onee Loveeeeeeeee
Onee Loveeeeeeeee, It's Oneee Loveeee,
I'm here to tell you It's One Love, oh
One Loveeeee, Said It's One Loveeee
Sing With Meee One Loveee,
One Love To Be Oh That's All We Need
One Love


So abw is over. it was fun. alright, so i'm a pessimistic bitch and i thought it was shit at first. my group was pretty cool. we did alright. it was fun while it lasted. it went by too quickly, almost. well i did skip a whole day.
i'm gonna miss normo. they have an awesome library. with this room with glass walls on second storey.
and i was only just beginning to learn how to navigate around the school.
IT WAS SO GOOD TO BE BACK AT HORNSBY THOUGH.
holy shit i felt like a normanhurst girl for a while.
it would be so weird going to a co-ed school.

omg the ads. THE AARON CHAN ONE (is that how you spell his name) by mesmermise, THEIR AD WAS HOT MANNNNN. i was like OMG i'll totally buy that. naww jessie yue. sorry guys, but i think that should have won. i wouldnt mind watching it over and over again. oh and heather's one was funny too. heather reminded me of cruella deville.
SEJONS AD WAS HOT TOO. WHOAI AISDOASD OH MY GOD. i thought it was some skanky chick in their photos.. but it was actually sejon. holy crap. he could pass as a girl. group 3 thought their ad was shitty but i thought pedram(?) running around shouting in another language looking like a red indian was pretty fucking hilarious.

through abw i overcame some of my social retardedness and overcame my fear of talking to people of the opposite gender excessively taller than me.
in fact, sometimes i was so bored i got kicks out of annoying the fuck out of everybody else and rambling off with people. and singing and dancing and typing up other people's speeches and reports for them HMMMM.
aww man. that was a good week. had its boring parts but beats school any day.
the only bad thing was that it was so goddamn hot.
i spent most of the days in the library though.

fun fun fun.

life and resilience next week o_o
fun fun fun?

i know its not mine but i'll see if i can use it for the weekend or a one night stand

EVERY MORNING THERE'S A HALO HANGING FROM THE CORNER OF MY GIRLFRIENDS FOUR POST BED.

ABW.

i am stuck in a group full of .. okay people. megan's group is worse off.
but just so you know, we have 2 boys that failed commerce. 50% man. and the other 3 i dont think do commerce. but hey, they're alright.. just.. some of them.. are a bit.. idle.

davina anita caroline chloe are a whizz.

BUT MEGANS GROUP OH MY GOD. I'M GOING TO USE NAMES. david sun and richard.. something. oh my goddddd i do feel sorry for her. they're the reason why her group's not skyrocketing. seriously.
I NEED TO BITCH. see, they act like they know eveeyrthing so i listened for a while then i realised they have no idea what they're on about.

they think increasing shares from a million to two million is going to get profit somehow. the hell?
that's just only one of the many stupid things they did. SHOCKIN.

normo is a bit.. yeah on the whole.
i suppose the rumour they sent the smart, well behaved half over to hornsby is true, because half the time i'm hearing guys hit on female teachers and discuss which is hotter. "miss, you do hula hoop much?" ..... or discussing which chick has the biggest rack. "duuuude her boobs are huuge checkitoutt"
they're so.. eugh. eww. thank god not all guys are like that. or at least are good at hiding it.

it's okay. my group. you're alright. we're coming third. we're losing with dignity.

i wish they'd consider things before they put us in random groups. seriously, you'll win depending on what group you're put in.
if i were in a group with say.. bianca and cindy and queena and.. kelvin and stuff from normo, we'd be gg. get share price over 30 by second quarter or something equally crazy.

we could have been corporate nightmares ):


THURSDAY - we came first in one quarter. second in the next. highest share price at normo was 28.something i think. AND OUR MARKET'S IN DEPRESSION. HOWZAT.
alright, so i was a bit biased before. normo's not that bad. was pretty fun today other than the times i spent annoying the fuck out of people because i was so bored.
TOMORROW I GO BACK TO HORNSBY. YAY.

see, the thing is, they put wayy too much makeup on jang geun suk while they're filming. makes him look old and .. snape-like.

(L)

dayumm who's a sexy bitchh




pretty boring video. but it was all worth it. to see them do the beginning of the abracadabra dance.

this is why they should tie me up and blindfold me

I SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO WATCH DRAMAS.

you're beautiful. imagine what would happen if i was watching iris.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PARK SHIN HYE WHY IS SHE SO PRETTY OMG WTH MAN.
total girl crush. well not really. wahh (L)

don't google image her everyone looks funny there. except for top. mostly.

당신은 미남이시네요= hot overload.
i can't say much about the storyline though. so far it's been sort of predictable and typical and bla bal bla and cute.

oh so this time jang geun suk plays some dark brooding character who is irrationally obsessed with something and is always bitchy. like prince zuko. let me guess, something bad happened in the past that scarred him for life? perhaps to do with something his parent did? OH it has something to do with his mother HOW DID I KNOW.
then you got that super duper ultra mega cute hongki~ who is kind of oblivious to everything and stupid and really cute.
then you have the calm kinda gentlemanly shiwoo. HE IS SO SWEET. like jiwoo from f4. and hwang te gyung is gu jyun pyo. and you have the very cute park shin hye being jandi. except this time she's actually pretty.

I SWEAR, IF GO MINAM/hye GETS WITH HWANG TE GYUNG (which she will i bet)
IM GOING TO BE VERY UPSET. what about shinwooo mannn. he's such a darling.
i bet its gonna end up with her softly rejecting him and him taking it like a man and hwang te gyung turning out to be a really nice guy. total prince zuko. which is okay, don't get me wrong i love jang geun suk so much i dont even care if his characters are asswipes- but it happens every single time.
i'd like to see at least a tiiiiny bit of variation in this. it's like a regurgitated version of every other drama based on behind the scenes celebs. like my last scandal and over the rainbow mixed with coffee prince.

BUT GODD A.N.JELL IS SO HOT O_O
F4 aint got nuttin' on them

gawddamn its 3.30.
one day i am going to be pretty o_o
just never like park shin hye. more like park bom. ohwells 3:


ep3 made me look at oldboy. i remember watching that when i was really little but i forgot what it was about. you should read up on it sometime. mann it's fucked up. almost as fucked up as my mind at 4am.

4.10am i live and breath for shiwoo. HIS ACCENT IS LIKE MY DADS BUT CUTE.
(L)(L)(L)
what it must be like to live in a drama world.

i will not sleep tonight.

vanilla twilight :3

Sorry I let you down
Sorry it wasn't quite true
But don't get hung up on it
Just soldier on with it
Good luck with shooting the moon

ok go ok go ok go
why don't you like ok go. they're so calming.

school cert was a breeeeeze. lucky i didnt really study. it'd have been a waste of my time.
hey, i'm not saying i got 100%. wouldn't it be funny if the results came back and i failed? LOL
but serioussslyy it was a waste of my time. i made faces at ha eun for 30 minutes for gods sake.

AND AND
JANG GEUN SEUK IS HOT. HAHhh
but not in dang shin eun mi nam i shi nae yo. or whatever it is in english.
he kinda looks like snape in that. sort of.
I DONT KNOW WHY HE ALWAYS GETS THE BITCHY ROLES.
he's such a cutey.

will watch baby and i shortly.

look at me, im turning more fobby.
ehm. oh yes, megan found some fantastic party invites. it fits the theme of our party down to a .. Z.
i am going to wear a big pirate hat. and a rapier.
what would that look like with fairy wings and a wand?
megan is going to be an indian (AKA A SAVAGE)
is it my fault i've too many friends (HAHH I WISH)
bollocks to your courtesy! if the eve of my glorification is ruined because of the losers you must invite out of courtesy (which they make no effort to reciprocate) I WILL BURN DOWN YOUR TOTEM POLE AND KILL PRINCESS TIGERLILLY. ALRITE?

you have to click on it to fully appreciate the tiger lilliness of it all.

owl city is a nice name, their song names are really nice too. vanilla twilight. umbrella beach. hot air balloon. meteor shower. strawberry avalanche (coz anything with strawberry in it is awesome)etc etc. its so dreamy and stuff yknow? like. the nice kind of dreams. with fluffy clouds and sunshine and fairyfloss and happiness and blue stuff. like those kids tv shows they used to have. (the ones they have nowadays are rubbish. except for pocoyo.)
POCOYO.... is japanese.
asian kids tv shows ftw. i like the .. clay / model stuff they make . they're so cute :3

i hope i don't fall asleep next exam.
I THINK I SHOULD SLEEP. I AM SO WISHY WASHY TODAY.
i finished the tommy&tuppence series and i am now at peace.

duuuude me and megan are like, totally on the same wavelength.
if we were the kind of petty little brats, we would probably have killed each other already claiming so called "copyrights" and "blablabla, i started this or i found this site first or i was the first to like this so you can't either unless you worship me because i need to feel esteemed"
the rubbish you girls think of. (but yeah it is kind of funny sometimes when they take you seriously and actually listen to you)
i dont think tumblr or facebook or food or country road bags or emoticons or phrases in the english language belong to anyone. i think only the creators can claim stuff like that.. because well.. they made it? though things like facebook and myspace and bebo are all clones. it's stupid you know? to not let someone else like something just because you (or so you think) "liked" it before them. especially if its a commercial product. i dont think the creator/owner cares if you dont want everyone else to have the same thing. i think s/he just wants profit profit and more profit.
if it was even possible for someone to claim copyright on some trend or whatever they claim they started, people would have taken out patents and copyrights or whatever on it and we'd all be living in a grey box.
but just so you know aosidjasodif is completely original and you're not allowed to copy it because it's totally my phrase you know. if i find anyone saying aosidjasodif to anyone anywhere i will have a totally irrational breakdown and will bitch to my little shallow minded minions and act all important. thankyou. (no not really. i just said that so i can pretend to be all cavalier and polite and formal and reasonable and stuff. there is a bird chirping in my neighbourhood and it's fucking 2am)
stellar/cosmic dust ftw.

you know megan, i'm sure you'd love corinthians.
choco mint corinthians.
it's a shame i polished off the last tin.

by the way, my group, i really like you guys and i think you guys deserve more o_o
it's funny how you only begin to appreciate things and see their worth once you know what's worthless/whatever so you can draw comparison.

SORRY SORRY SORRY my brain switches off at 1.30 every day.
zzz

dustland fairytale

i had a huge blog i typed up and posted but then my internet fucked up and all of it went boom and now i'm in a pretty bad mood and i can't be bothered to type it all up again

I'M IN MIAMI BIIITCHh

sometimes i really do miss you.
other times i don't.

irrelevant titles ftw.

how do i say this? 아시워.
it's a shame you don't understand. if i said it aloud you'd probably say it sounds harsh and angry.
did you know, that's one sign you probably shouldnt study a language for hsc? :D
apparantly it shows you're intolerant to languages (the ones you don't understand) and, dare i say it? i dare to. ignorance.

it's such a crying shame, and even bigger because you don't care. well maybe not anymore. i don't even know if i do either..
what i'm wondering is, is this boat sinking or has it already sunk?

I REALLY NEED TO LET THIS DROP.
and get over it + myself + everything else.
i suppose it's because time is running out. i really ought to do something but i don't know what.
hmm.

interpret this any way you want. i disgust myself sometimes because because because
i don't know why but i do whatever anyway. maybe it's because i don't care

oh look, my mind's changed again. i do care.
oops. now i don't. i swear there's tablets for this.

thus saith the lord thus saith the lord thus saith the lord thus saith the lord

when i was little i thought anastasia and prince of egypt was disney, but it's actually dreamworks.
not that it really makes a difference to me though, it's still an awesome movie.

so right now my list of favourite movie producing companies (is that what its called?)
are

1. disney. i doubt it will ever change, unless they kill their animation and go on with their stupid tween shows because i never like any of them. not even lizzie mcguire when i was a kid. +miley cyrus should be stoned. but only because i dont like her.

2. dreamworks. there's so many films they do that people think are done by disney LOL. unlike pixar, which is actually owned by disney

3. studio ghibli. most of their stuff's really hectic and dream-like, eg spirited away. i really like their movies but as a kid i watched them too much. i guess thats where i get my random dreams from..

4. ehm. i dont know any particulars. warner bros? hah.

anyways, so i was analysing the film prince of egypt.
i think its the first time i watched it since i turned 9.
when you watch it after 3 years of being trained as a mini film critic, you begin to notice all the little elements and features you just looked over as a kid.
like those seemingly pointless/random scenes or things you don't understand because you're too young to?
yeah. well. heh :)

for example, this screenshot was taken after the red sea caves back in over pharoh and his army.
SEE I AN EGYPTIAN? this cleared up a lot of confusion for me because i thought they'd all been killed because they were egyptians and they were trying to kill hebrews but i was like but they were only following orders ):
were they killed based on race? no, turns out it was based on faith :)

ha eun is soo good at clearing up stuff like these .

i wanna watch howls moving castle next.
WITH ENGLISH SUBTITLES SO I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON FOR THE MOST PART.

jap.. fml.
my marks are making me confused. i'm meant to be happy and sad and disappointed and proud all at the same time.

depressant.

DEAR FORCES WORKING AGAINST ME TODAY
I AM SORRY FOR SKIPPING CHURCH TODAY.
I WAS BORED AND SINGING AND SKIPPING AROUND THE HOUSE LOOKING FOR MONEY SO I COULD GO TO THE STORES AND BUY CANDY.
THEN I SAW A BOTTLE OF JACK DANIELS AND BECAUSE I'M HOME ALONE I OPENED IT.
IM REALLY SORRY AND I WONT DO IT AGAIN (MOST LIKELY)
PLEASE GIVE ME BACK THE LID.

edit: thanks man.
alrite alrite i learnt my lesson. geesh.
really creative too. i cant believe i looked over it.

BTW 김영운♥
♥♥♥

i can't let go go GO

yesterday i jarred my fourth finger on my right hand and now it is blue and purple and bandaged to my third finger.
today i'm meant to be going to this meeting thingy and tomorrow i'm getting rebaptised.
i was meant to go to the 11am session but my parents have disappeared so i guess i'll go to the 6pm one.

anyways, i keep having weird dreams.
they're soo confusing.
and i had trouble getting to sleep last night because my stupid autonomic nerve system is messed up, i think, because every time i NEARLY fell asleep i'd stop breathing.

I HAD ANOTHER LUCID DREAM.
in it i saw some big chunk of text and i was like LOL this is a dream and started to read it and well dreams are like the matrix SORT OF because you only get what you program so i could only discern some words and the rest was mush.

now wasn't that fun?

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
i don't want school certs or work experience or business week
i'm so unprepared for everything and next year.
why can't i stay a little girl forever?

이러다 미쳐내가

another thing that sucks about my parents is that they're incredibly cheap D:
they bought another barbeque thingy and axe o_o
BUT THEY WONT BUY ME ANOTHER FORMAL DRESS.
i'm only going to two formals, HOW HARD CAN IT BE?
they don't even want me to go to two so seeing as i've already paid for nsg...
i might not be able to go to hornsbys.
they don't even wanna buy me a pair of goddamn shoes, i'm really pushing for it.
to top it off, the girl that's taking me told me they're going in a hummerzine..
limosine.. or.. whatever it is.
42$ per person.
THATS LIKE THE COST OF A DECENT PAIR OF SHOES.

GOD, THAT HUMMERZINE BETTER HAVE A BUILT IN JELLYBEAN DISPENSER AND DRINKS AND TELEVISIONS AND A SOWING MACHINE. OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

i can't believe i'm wasting my birthday+christmas present on this ):
i'm supposed to be getting a shitty second hand car, like they do in the movies.

hornsby formal ):

day 1 of relative freedom

today i went to sydney markets which was boring.
then to eastwood which was also boring.
my parents are stupid and petty and boring and bicker over the stupidest things and i have to break up their little spats.

ANYWAYS upon returning i finally finished catching up a little bit with community channel. AHH I WANNA VISIT AMERICA... but korea more o_o
i'm craving jellies and chips and ice cream and restaurant shit and other food and tv and culture so bad.
2 more years of waiting left. TWO WHOLE FUCKING YEARS.

anyways, about my whale, it's big, its blue, has black oval eyes and has a whiteish underbelly and it needs a name.
SO PLEASE, ANY SUGGESTIONS TO ME WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED.

ohh yyeahh anyone wanna watch the new alice in wonderland movie wimme?

BRB

IT'S MY LUCKY DAY!

today was a good day. well it was sort of.
at 1am i decided to give vd a once over. i cbf studying it coz i don't care.
nor do i care about pdhpe. so i ended up sleeping at 2.30 coz i read 8 pages at snail speed. then the freakiest thing happened.
i was falling asleep, and before you fall asleep you think of stuff. so i thought.
then i thought of the monster from where the wild things are..
personally i think it looks very scary. then.. i started thinking of scarier stuff.. like.. dark places and saws and stuff.. and it came real and it turned into a nightmare and i tried to stop but i couldn't control my "thoughts" anymore.. then i was like hang on- wasn't i thinking just a minute ago? so.. this is a dream?
then i was panicking so i tried to wake up but i couldn't move my arms or legs or anything.. so i freaked out.. and woke up with a jolt.
i think its called lucid dreaming. it was weird o_o

yeah anyways, vd was easy o_o
i either did good or bad.
pe i studied an hour before exams LOL.
i didn't know shit at 8am. not even.. drabc.
strangely enough, i found the test really trivial and finished 20 minutes early and slept a bit ...

i either did good or bad o_o

then to celebrate me and sewon and eugenie went to timezone and genie played the stacker game and i played the claw machine one.
because i saw these big blue whales and wanted one.
A WHALE. AOISDJSAD.
so yeah, i won it. $6.

FROM ONE OF THE BIG CLAW MACHINES TOO. AHAHAHAHA ME SO HAPPY.
it's my joy my pride my love and the highlight of today. :D
even better than maccas. which i had every day o_o
i'm gonna regret that later.
i wanna try the green tea thing from that snow.. something place. llooks yum.
then i got .. pooh bear mobile phone stuff. i gave my brother the turtle and i kept the bucket. pooh bear (L)



nothing else interesting really happened after that.
i wish i could be bothered to whore and upload photos of my whale.

speaking of whoring, i went on youtube to catch up on community channel and such,
then there was this link to.. magibon
so i clicked on it coz she was really pretty o_o
it turned out it was 30 seconds of her staring at the camera... ....
doing "cute" stuff.. doing weird eyebrow stuff.. and ... yeah.
that got her over three million views.
turns out she's ranked number 1 in subscribers in japan and the 60th most subscribed to ever.

what the fuck?

so i did a bit of research as to why she was so popular o_o
turns out she's some yobo that lives off her looks.
who can't actually speak japanese but tries to..
ohh, the places where looks can get you.





reminds me of one of the.. younger kids at school LOL
i can't wait till everything's over.

YEARLIES ARE OVER! FREEDOM! BLUDGE FOR REST OF YEAR! YAY!

i wanna go to korea ): so bad. so bad. its where all the good tv and candy are ):
my grandma is visiting next year :D
i hope she brings candies and stuff too :D
my grandma is cool. at a park in korea (there's always these random exercise stuff everywhere) she lifted 85kg.. like it was a sack of hay.. i was like WHOAAA. STEP BACK. imagine what woulda happen if someone tried to steal her purse. lol.
but i don't think she can run fast. that would be quite the sight.

omgg my senior skirt is like 3 sizes too big.
few more weeks.

LOL JAPANESE ADS

ROFL HAHAHAHA
i love asian ads. they're so different from the crap you get around here.
they're actually FUNNY.
LOOLOLOL KOALA (L)
sleepy little crackhead <3
all i know is that its got something to do with cars and money. car insurance?



daigokujin? does that mean foreigner?
lol idno wtf its advertising though. LOL RANDOM BUNNY SHAKING ITS ASS
maybe it's about teaching english. it says something about talking a lot and listening..


LLOL TOILET


i like the koala one better. theres this one where they drive in on koala cars but the first koala video links to it so i cbf embedding
korean ads make me homesick.
even though i've only lived/been there for.. less than a fifth of my life.
THERE'S THIS PHONE AD OF THIS GUY/GIRL DANCING AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A GIRL BUT IT TURNS OUT ITS A REALLY PRETTY GUY O_O
내가 여자였으면 좋겠어?

헐! ㅇㅁㅇ"

all i hear is raindrops (8)

today my mum told me i shouldn't drink milk anymore / drink less / drink soy
because apparantly, our whole family is allergic to milk/lactose intolerant
naturally, that would include me.

but seriously. me? allergic to milk?
give me a break. say something PLAUSIBLE for once. if there's anyone here that drinks more milk than me i'll drink a whole mugful without stopping.

aint no way i'm gonna stop. or give up my dairy. i'd rather die than give up cubed cheese. DIE, I SAY.

edit: my mum also said she's not gonna buy chicken anymore because our family is allergic. DUUDE. BULLSHIT. I'VE EATEN CHICKEN ALL MY LIFE. IM WIRED TO IT. I NEED IT. I'M MENTALLY DEPENDANT ON IT. there's no way i can live without dak juk ):

chicken <3


--

so, instead of studying science i was being a slut and looking at pictures of cosmic/stellar/star dust.



the first one is really pretty if you click on it

spicks and specks

you reckon if i asked my uncle he'd get me a migidoll?
i've wanted one of those for years now 3:

but what would i do with one?
display it.
ahaha.


everyone seems to be studying hardcore. meanwhile i'm reading horror novels and stuff. may luck be on my side next week.


OHH I FINALLY GOT ME HOUSE OF LEAVES.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
hhhehh :D



Les jeux sont fait. Nous sommes fucked.



nous sommes fucked
nous sommes fucked
nous sommes fucked

we are fucked.

giving to the people who need

www.thehungersite.com

:D

Today, my teacher was telling us a story about her friend's adopted son and how he got picked on for it. One day at school a boy went up to him and said, "I came from my mommy's tummy, where did you come from?" knowing the boy was adopted. His response? "I came from my mommy's heart." He was 6 years old at the time. This GMH


I turned on my TV this afternoon to watch some football. I was confused to see one of the players with pink cleats. But then I saw another. And another. And pink gloves. And pink hats. Then I saw the huge pink ribbons on the goal posts. All these huge, imposing men showing their support of breast cancer awareness for the women in their lives GMH.

Today I was babysitting for a 5-year-old and a 7-year old. The 5-year-old is really afraid of thunder. When it started to thunder, I was surprised when she didn't come ask me to lay in her bed. I went to check and saw her big sister cuddling with her and telling her that thunder was just angels bowling. GMH

This morning as I was packing lunch, about to leave for work, my boyfriend danced into the kitchen singing a made up song consisting of only my name over and over. When he saw me, he turned red and said "Oh, you're still here". Sneaking a peak in the daily routine of someone who really loves me GMH.

I was crying after a bad day. My three year old brother came into my room and cuddled in bed with me. When I didn't acknowledge him, he went out to the kitchen and came back with an ice cream sandwich and his favorite stuffed animal. He put them in bed beside me and petted my hair. His love GMH

Last weekend, an 18-year-old construction worker braved rampaging floods in the Philippines to save more than 30 people, but ended up sacrificing his life in a last trip to rescue a baby girl and her mother who were being swept away on a styrofoam box. Muelmar Magallanes GMH.

My dad works with a man who is mentally disabled. He pays $20 a day to take a taxi to and from work only to be making minimum wage. Then he goes home to an empty apartment and eats chef boyardee every night. My dad now drives him to and from work everyday, even though it's 20 minutes out of his way, and once a week he eats dinner with us. My dad GMH.

I was reading about a little kid whose mom told him the key to life was happiness. When he was in school the teacher asked them to write down what they wanted to be when they grew up. He said happy. They said he didn't understand the assignment. He said they didn't understand life. My generation GMH

Today I was feeling down and went to be alone in an old graveyard. One particular headstone struck me- a married couple's gravestone and only the wife had died- 20 years ago. I touched the vibrant flowers sitting in front of the marble marker. They were fresh. Enduring love, even after death, GMH.

Yesterday my little brother's friend came to spend the night. I was on my way to my room after playing Trouble with them when the little boy says "Your sister is awesome!" my brother responds with "I know". His friend says "I thought you hated her" and he responds with "I thought I did". This GMH

i like that site better than fml.
and yeah, alrite, most of them might be made up.
but not all of them. which makes a difference.
it's reassuring to know kind people still exist in this world.
gives me hope.

hatepost is funny too tho.
so's the mom and dad fob one.
there's love my life too.. LML. i haven't been on there so idno if its good or not.
tere's also my life is awesome and my life is average
MILA and MLIA

so many @_@

言いたい事

涼しい顔して～

いつか私も鳥に成るよ。
えぇぇ...
日本語でまだ下手ですが、韓国語よりもっと上手だと思います。

ねえ、お前。何を考えるの？
私達は友ではなかったか？
残念。私はずっとお前が友だと思ったよ。
どうして小さいがきのような行為か。
失望した。何に成るの？
お前たくさん変わったよ＊。しかし私はまだ自分の思考を表現する方法を知らない。

えぇと、何て言うのかなぁ...　新しいお前が好きじゃない。いえ、嫌い。お前が嫌い。
言うことを注意しなさい
お前は一体何を知っているの？
何も知らなければ、何も言わないでくれ。

もうおそかったな。　
私、帰るよ。お前も帰りなさい。昔のあなたに。

*すみません！やっぱり日本語が苦手だ。

oh man. that did more good than the jap assessment.
i wish i had a tutor to tell me if it made sense o_o

두유렵미~? 두유렵미~

글리맨.

things that make me happy.

jennifer "bagel" han is awesome.

if this book ever gets published in australia i'll be sure to buy it.

i still haven't given up on completing my shaun tan collection.

omg today i advanced one more step in koreanness (GASP)

i bought one of those bumpy hula hoops. my brother says its ul tung bul tung hae.

the toning ones. 49$ at morning glory.

i reckn it ws the cheapest one there.

my coputer is very laggy today an keeps missing out some of the letters i tye.

i hate nex week

SYC - COMMON GROUND

i got back from church camp today. suprisingly, it was actually really worthwhile!
it was soo much better than last camp (which was a bit dodgy)
this time, i wouldn' mind going again. it was a great experience. not exactly what you'd call "fun", wait a sec- it wasn't "fun", it was awesome.
where's my timetable..
yess.. the sermons were very enlightening, reminded me of a lot of the stuff i'd forgotten about and put things back into perspective for me.
i was reluctant to go at first (because the last camp was a nightmare) but it turns out this was the thing that i needed most.
i'm glad i went :D
there were so many cool people there. funny people.
pg1, 2 and 3 all went to one camp this time. that's what common ground stood for. pg1's for yr7-9, pg2 for 10-12 and pg3 for non english speaking koreans.
they're soo funny :D
they redefined FOB for me.

FOB = FRESH OFF THE 비행기!
that's right. koreans are now rich enough to afford planes :)

if i were to name my favourite part of the camp.. it would be the second day.
from 2.30~6pm we had to split into our cell groups and create and perform a play based on the three criterion we were given - genre, action and famous person.
we got romance, SNSD and 7 second headstand. it was one of those things you don't want to do yourself, but love watching other people do :D

ahh the f10 one was so funny.

the other cool part was the performances. the twins that won k-idol in 07' or something performed for us. THEY WERE SO GOOD OMGOD AIHDFSDFSDF
beat taylor swift. but not beyonce.

EDIT: i remembered one song they sang - Tamia - Officially missing you
they're so goooood :)

one of the other twins was also in the male team.. i think that's how you spell it. yes, well they'r a dance group and they were good too.
i was expecting the male team to be male though..
THEN OUR TEACHERS PERFORMED TOO! well the younger ones did. like the college age people. DID YOU KNOW MY PASTOR CAN FLY?
I BET YOUR PASTOR CAN'T BREAKDANCE! haha
then we had these rap/hiphop artists perform. ACTUAL RAPPERS. they did the whole gangster thingy.. and stuff..
i forgot their name tho :x
apparantly they're quite popular in korea.

the big guy told us to give him 3 things to rap about and he'd do it impromptu.
we said 1 - 엄마 2- 손 3- 맷돼지 (mom, hand(s), warthog)
he did it and did it well. PRO. i was like *0* REAL LIFE RAPPER! OSIDFSGSDFSGS.

other than the various moral things and etc i learnt from camp (i also learnt a thing or two about evolution.. i'm going to look it up then blog it later) i also now can't stop listening to abracadabra by brown eyed girls, (i hate that band)genie by snsd (i hate them too) and mister by kara (i hate them the least out of the three)
can you believe the yr7s can dance like all those girl bands. whose dances primarily consist of waving their ass around. like in abracadabra.
i was like O_O WHOAAAA.

i liked the last day's menu best.

ahh i'm so tired. i think i covered the most memorable parts. goodo. off to bed.

dispelling a few stupid theories

as you all may know, i got into nsg and blablabla i might be going.
i guess this comes with going to a girls' school, but i've been hearing some theories people have come up with and some might have a point while others are just plain stupid. i'd like to clear up and discuss a few of these with nobody in particular and on a blogspot. i guess this is just for peace of mind.

- i am not going to nsg just because judy is there. she is a good friend of mine but what kind of person moves schools just for one person. helloo? would you? i wouldn't. it's not like im some kind of loner either. no really.

- i do not have connections there o_o dude.. i hardly know a handful. plus i'm not a gangster/whatever. i dont have "connections", i have "friends"

- somehow everyone knows me and they all hate me there - bullshit. they may have heard someone by my name goes to hornsby and got in, but they're probably thinking what i'd think if i heard someone got into hghs. "what's she like?"

- i don't hate hornsby. i don't know how to prove that i don't though. i've considered rejecting the offer. why leave a school i'm familiar with and where i'd get all the subjects i want, to go to a school where i barely know anyone inc. teachers and have to do ITALIAN instead of SPANISH? i don't even know if i'll get the subjects i want to take.

- as far as i know, i'm fine with everyone who's fine with me. it's stupid to change schools for even stupider reasons like that.

- i did not just get in because i had connections. we were told they base their selection on academical merits, and i certainly don't know anyone in the judges(?) panel / acer.

there was also something like how i'm a dumbshit and they must have lowered their standards a lot for someone like me to get in.

well, aren't you just the nicest? let's see who'll do better in the hsc. i challenge you. actually no, that made me sound very arrogant, so i'll just say-

did you apply for a different school?
i don't think you did. and if you did, you didn't get in.

it was really nerve-wracking and difficult for me and it took a lot of time and guts for me to actually accept, and i'd say i actually tried this time.
so can you just try be happy for me? please?

WOWZA IM BACK FROM A WEEK OF NO INTERNET

honestly my dad's gonna flip his lid soon.
or change our internet service provider.
or maybe both.

well in the meanwhile, i've finished a couple of books, re-played a few games.
i read aesops fables too. here's some of the moral lessons:
Injuries may be forgiven, but not forgotten.
Any excuse will serve a tyrant.
Gratitude and greed go not together.
Gratitude is the sign of noble souls.
No gratitude from the wicked.
You will only injure yourself if you take notice of despicable enemies.
Distrust interested advice.
Destroy the seed of evil, or it will grow up to your ruin.
He that is neither one thing nor the either has no friends.
Do not trust flatterers.
It is easy to propose impossible remedies.
Never trust a friend wh deserts you in a pinch
The gods help them who help themselves.
The strong and the weak cannot keep company.
Please all and you will please none.

We can easily represent things as we wish them to be.
It is easy to despise what you cannot get.
It is useless attacking the insensible.
Little friends may prove great friends.
We often despise what is most useful to us.
Outside show is a poor substitute for inner worth.
It is not only fine feathers that make fine birds.
Much outcry, little outcome.
There is always someone worse off than yourself
It is easy to be brave from a safe distance.


The Hare With
Many Friends not really.
A Hare was very popular with the other beasts who all
claimed to be her friends. But one day she heard the hounds
approaching and hoped to escape them by the aid of her
many Friends. So, she went to the horse, and asked him to
carry her away from the hounds on his back. But he declined,
stating that he had important work to do for his master. ‘He
felt sure,’ he said, ‘that all her other friends would come to
her assistance.’ She then applied to the bull, and hoped that
he would repel the hounds with his horns. The bull replied:
‘I am very sorry, but I have an appointment with a lady; but I
feel sure that our friend the goat will do what you want.’ The
goat, however, feared that his back might do her some harm
if he took her upon it. The ram, he felt sure, was the proper
friend to apply to. So she went to the ram and told him the
case. The ram replied: ‘Another time, my dear friend. I do
not like to interfere on the present occasion, as hounds have
been known to eat sheep as well as hares.’ The Hare then applied,
as a last hope, to the calf, who regretted that he was
unable to help her, as he did not like to take the responsibility
upon himself, as so many older persons than himself had
declined the task. By this time the hounds were quite near,
and the Hare got eaten.

He that has many friends, has no friends. the bold was added in by me.

TODAY AT 11.30 I GOT INTERNET AGAIN.

Kingdom Hearts 365/2 Days is now in english. well it was a couple of days ago but then i was capped and then i had no internet. mother*
so far so good. well i'm only 5mins in, so..
the voice acting is pretty disappointing at parts. and the graphics. and the sometimes poor translation from japanese. I MUST SHOW EUGENIE :O
SERIOUSLY. IS THIS EVEN JESSE MCARTNEY?


OoooOOoo jesse mcartney (L)
wait no. zac efrons the new hot blonde guy with blue eyes. but he's not new anymore... CHACE CRAWFORD SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

MY UNCLE SENT ME A TERABYTE HARDDRIVE FULL OF MOVIES AND I LOVE HIM
(but he's a pervert)

THATS WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU :D

shrek was on tv. ahh. ncis new series. disappointing, i say. most of it was good. well denozo was. :E. but the endings were rushed, dodgy and well. unrealistic.
you can't sniper shoot a terrorist with one shot like that, from 500m away, that's too easy, what are the odds? what's more, even if you achieve a feat like that, you can't arrive there a minute later and shoot down minions and save your agents that easily, what did you do, apparate? i think not. but i'll let it pass because denozo is awesome. he's the movie guy right? sorry i dont watch ncis enough to know the names.

OH YES - last assessment of the term, and well, possibly my last hghs assessment : FINISHED! YAYAYYAYYAYAY MISTER PERKINS!

“Australian society, as much as any other society in the world, values people according to the colour of their skin, their race, their wealth and the suburbs they live, and the tragedy is young Aborigines are devalued in Australian society.

They learn and receive messages from society of low worth and expectations of mediocrity and failure.

I challenge these messages and dream for young Aboriginal Australians and I encourage them to believe in themselves.”


i'm having a happy day today. happy, but not necessarily good.
my jap mark was disappointing. if i found out the percentage i'd tear my hair out.
HOW DID I DO THAT? HOW!?
andd my dress arrived today. the one that cost a finger and a nail o_o
85$, few hours of complaining and useless nagging from mum, all for a dress too big.
and i thought i'd have to squeeze into a size 8. mother *

i've never been to the tailor's before :/

whatever.

i am not stupid.

WHAT THE SHIT MEGAN

apparantly i am now a capricorn.



i find this deeply upsetting.

http://jannock.wordpress.com/2005/09/13/star-signs/

Constellation Dates
Capricorn – January 19 to February 15
Aquarius – February 16 to March 11
Pisces – March 12 to April 18
Aries – April 19 to May 13
Taurus – May 14 to June 19
Gemini – June 20 to July 20
Cancer – July 21 to August 9
Leo – August 10 to September 15
Virgo – September 16 to October 30
Libra – October 31 to November 22
Scorpio – November 23 to November 29
Ophiuchus – November 30 to December 17
Sagittarius – December 18 to January 18


CURSE YOU OPHIUCHUS, SERPENT BEARER.
I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS. I WILL NEVER ACKNOWLEDGE BEING A CAPRICORN.
I GREW UP AN AQUARIUS AND I WILL DIE AN AQUARIUS, PERIOD.

me and megan were discussing how most people, well actually forget it.

OMG I THINK I HAVE OCD MANN IM FUCKING DEPRESSED OMG I HAVE XENOPHOBIA DONT TOUCH ME IM CLAUSTROPHOBIC GARHHH BIPOLAR

GIVE ME MY FUCKING MAGIC MUSHROOM.

and megan was just telling me, if you feel uncomfortable amongst strangers, that's kind of normal. a phobia is like. being scared of something so bad you start crying or nearly chuck. like how someone in yr7 cried when they came too close to a bridge.

perhaps there are milder forms but either way, having a mental disease or a phobia or something like that, is meant to be kept private. like having a small dick.
what's the use of going around telling people? they'll just use it against you, unless you were talking shit all along.

a person with an actual mental disease can be prescribed medicine, (like my friends grandma) and most don't go shouting it out to the world like DUUDE IM SUICIDALL OMIGOD
because the only response they'd get would probably be like naww ): wuts wongggg~?
which doesnt really help.

bringing me to another topic me and sewon, later sabrina, then megan were discussing. not everyone can empathise. most just sympathise. perhaps that's why depressed people sometimes never get better, coz they're given so much crap like ): get better sooooooon~<3 ): are you feeling better today? whats wronggg ): did i do something bla bla bal bla - well at least they gave a shit and tried. or pretended. i guess it makes a difference if they actually meant it. or gave a thought about what they were saying.

i ought to have better things to do in vd, but i've little or no interest in paper pins and paper jewellery.

i hope i can find charles perkins' obituary.

the typical dilemma of a glutton

i have here, 3 boxes of shapes.

roasted garlic&parmesan, vintage cheddar&chives, italian woodfried pizza.

which do i open first? AOSFJSDFKSDFSF.
i'm edging towards vintage cheddar&chives; everyone knows i love vintage cheddar,
but i'm betting the woodfried pizza will be the tastiest.

the roasted garlic&parmesan i got as an experiment to see what garlic would taste like on a biscuit.
hmm, maybe i should open the garlic one first then. yes, i think i will.


pointless blog of the day :D


oh yeah today was fun. it sucks to be capped though, and having a maple story addicted brother. 500mb left before 50$ fine.

slow [e] motion

they say you can tell a lot about a person judging from who they're friends with.

also, in .. was it 4? or 6 years time, you will be almost exactly like the 4 or 6 people you spend the most time with. which doesn't really make sense, because you cant be like 4/6 people at the same time, so i guess it means a mix.

soo, in 4 or 6 years time i'll probably be just like..
a- ohhhh damn i'm not gonna name 6. in 6 years time i'll be just like my friends :)
not too bad.

i wish we could have our formal in somewhere more.. acceptable.
i wish we had a better **. i'd say more, were it not for the existance of c+p and screenshotting.

or maybe i'm just biased coz she doesn't like me very much. well she might, but she doesn't show it very well.
oh wells, not like i'm gonna be at hg next year. i shouldn't say that just in case i change my mind at last moment.

coz chelts and riversides got in too ):

i remember back in the dayyy

today i woke up at 6.30 and the sky was blood orange.
so i was like MOTHER FUCK AM I IN HELL ALREADY? (joking)
but yeah i've been smelling dirt for the past few hours.
my parents were like wanna stay at home
and i was like zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
so they took it as a yes.

yesterday i went to nsg. the school's so hectic mannn. i'm gonna get lost >_>
butyeahs. somehow most of them already knew me... and
SIMONE! this one girl was like
- hi do you know simone?
me- yerr she's really good at music and dancing
her - SHE'S SO PRETTY!!!!! (or did she say hot? ;D)

yeah :D
i ordered uniform at chatswood too. their jumper is.. bright green.. the very same green that made me refuse to apply for baulko.. so i didn't buy it.
i reckon hornsby senior uniform is prettier but ohwells.
the teachers there are really nice! i wish could do mandarin.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

so i was wondering, why the fuck did you ever become a parent?

"..you hate him but you can't stop thinking about him. You kid yourself he's all right really, an' then when you see him again; it's like asthma an' you can't breathe. I tell you what."
- piggy from a lord of the flies ebook.

i haven't got the book myself.


ugh.

ralph is so cute. i'd kidnap him any day. is that what you call buckteeth? holy shit he's probably older than my grandma now. i wonder what happened to james aubrey.





sam and eric are adorable. i love twins :D
i wish i had one.

i'm going back to the staaaaart.

today my dad bought back these really nice chocolates.
the ones that melt really quickly and dissolve in your mouth even quicker and dont have any of that icky grainy texture. the smoooth buttery ones with lots of fatty stuff :)
this one was dark. even better.

i took one. it was DELECTABLE. SCRUMPTIOUS. A CREDIT TO ALL OF ITS KIND. i took another. it was just as good.
i was about to take another, when the voice said "christine, don't do this."
".... but... but... THE CHOCOLATE!"
"think of your ever expanding waistline. cmonn you'll go past the point of no return at this rate"
"the fuck i will."
"don't do this to yourself! let your brother grovel in fatty hell."
"he's a guy. at growing age. it'll just make his legs longer"
"if you take those, i'll give you shit about this for the rest of the week, bitch."
"..."
"did you take them?"

this is the content me and the voices' conversations usually consist of.
i took the whole damn row, and i plan on taking more. i am eating them now as i type.
old habits die hard.

i'll indulge in all forms of excess (that i can get my hands on) till the day i cark it.

and i think i should think of more interesting things to post in the future.


雨が降っている。涼しいなぁ～
やっぱり夏が好き。

god, i'm getting rusty.

じゃね。

i am having a good week.

a very good week. well not very good but pretty darn good.
:D:D

but other people have been having not so good weeks.
like my friend　this week　 nearly got kidnapped. it was about 8am, when some guy pulled over and asked her for directions, then started making small talk and asking stuff like, so what school do you go to? what grade? ahh. i dont really know anything coz i just moved here. yeah. balbala

twas a shifty looking guy she said. ASIAN TOO! with dodgy teeth.
she was about to turn and keep going to school when he suddenly grabbed her and tried to drag her into his car. wrong move.
she's a fucking blackbelt mannn. been like that since yr6, i think.

so yeah, she got away, and suprisingly enough, she's not even traumatised.
if that had happened to me, i'd probably be a slave right now. i'm wayy too chicken.



you know one thing thatd piss me off after being kidnapped?
braces.
i'd have to have them for the rest of my life or something. that would really suck balls. and i'd have been so close to having perfect teeth. and well, i guess my life. all those years of school for nothing.

thank the good lord this week was a good week for me.


OH YEAH . the good stuff that happend to me this week:
- i got a 4gb microsd :D
- 3 new ds games
- phone call :D:D:D:D:D (aka nsg rang me up and told me how wonderful i am)
- i think i passed the korean profficiency test, which means i might be able to go to korea next year for free!!! :D:D:D:D::D:D:D::D:D::D:D:D:D:D::D:D:D

my head hurts. i haven't written/read/spoken so much korean in years.

the bad stuff:
- english
- commerce
- pdhpe
- history
- ave i forgotten anything?

save some faaaaace, you know you've only got oneee

change your waaaaaays, while you're (still) young


yayyer classics (Y)
yr10 is quicker than i thought.
assignements are okay as long as i dont procrastinate + fuck myself over.
YAY FOR PROFESSOR LAYTON AND THE CURIOUS VILLAGE :3
cooking mama sucks.

lalalallalaallaaalla

boo for geo.

I AM WRITING MY ANTHOLOGY AND RACHEL SAID IT WAS VERY GOOD AND I AM PROUD :D

i dont have anything to say nowadays.
too busy getting on wif lyf

golly im sleepy.

PLAYRADIOPLAY! i love rachel yeong .

My parachute didn't open
And when my back up failed
The pixie dust prevailed
And I woke up next to you
All I wanted was to hold you

I was born in a city
However small
It held a hospital
For location where I came into being
It was all downhill from there

What do you do
When your lifes a disaster
And you're moving faster
And it's getting harder to breathe

What do you say
To someone whose right but
You disagree
Even if it's the truth

I was told you are depressed
By a little bird
That was severly hurt
As it did not notice my window
It just flew wherever the wind blows
As it convulsed on the pavement
It whispered I am hated
Your genetic flaws
I said say it all
You can't decipher reflections from reality
But neither can I

I noticed neither can I
I noticed neither can I
I noticed neither can I

You are the circle
I am the square
I have the non cut
You have the cool hair
We both take showers
For almost an hour
But only once a week or two

What do you do
When your lifes a disater
And your moving faster
And it's getting harder to breathe

What do you say
To someone whose right but
You disagree
Even if it's the truth



QQ: what do you say to someone who's not right, but they probably will disagree until you shove cold hard proof under their nose, and even then nothing will happen?
A: nothing.

QQ: do things ever change?
A: sometimes.

QQ: do people ever change?
A: it happens for the better or worse.

why can't i do the jedi mind trick?

MOTHER FUCKER

today megan got me a pikachu which sounded super cool :D
it made my dayy
which was nice because i was feeling pretty shitty coz im deathly sick and everyfink
and i couldnt go to multicultural fair or ben's 16th.
and i have history and jap assessment task to do, which i havent started coz i was confined to my bed most of the day.
THEN MY MUM COMES HOME AND ANNOUNCES SHE'S GIVEN IT TO SOME YR7.
why?
because she was playing with it and looked like she liked it.

my responses:
-excessive twitching (even if it was only mentally)
- are you fucking kidding me?
- you're joking, right?
- you MOTHER FUCKING IDIOT (#$#$#*$(#$#)$#*$#($

she wasn't. goddamnit. only my mum would be stupid enough to do something like that.
i do not understand how her mind works.
it wasn't even hers, to begin with. i'm sure megan told her to give it to ME.
and why yr7? why not one of my fucking friends -_-

BUT GRR. MY MOTHER FUCKING PIKACHU. ROARR.

chillax man.
ksorryiljustgohomenow.
what the fuck do i say to that yr7 now? coz my fucking mum probably just ruined her day?
fuck.

HAHAHAA

ee long time no blog.

i hate history, my brother and my dad. my mums not home right now so i can't say whether i hate her or not.

my acquaintances are all dingbats. not collectively.
actually, they're not, i am but idiots call others idiots :D

rachel and nicole dictate the music i listen to.

megan is very literate.

my phone is distractive.

alesha is a dingbat though. a dim dingbat.

i am a sleepy sloth.

i dont even bother surfing tumblr now.
whats up, christine?

bah ba ba bah

goodnight

“When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.” — ~ Lisa Unger, Beautiful Lies

whenthelovefalls

well i was back on tuesday, but i was dealin with other, more pressing matters and getting re-acquainted with the digital world.

my home and mobile numbers have both changed.

i was going through my old music files again and UESFSD YIRUMA!
one of the only koreans i know that i'm proud of... being of.. the same nationality of :D
im gonna get my mummy to teach me how to play
his rendition of dream a little dream of me is pretty.
http://leecom.blogspot.com/2008/05/yiruma.html
pianna sheets :3

sometimes someone

i'm getting ha eun a ds.

i'm getting kristie -

the video for strawberry swing - coldplay is really cute.

CJ is back (for today)

hey all.
sorry everyone, i have no internet for the time being.
i'm at megans atm. GOSH YOU DONT WANNA FUCK WITH HER!
well actually she punches like my little brother but she still punches :D

IM A BUNDLE OF NERVES ATM.
HEEEEEEEEEEK
i hope everything goes as planned
*inhales*



i first saw this quote in one of my many tumblr-surfing adventures in the beginning of the year. i blogged it in all three of my blogs :D
maybe even this one.

then i saw it again in coraline! which megan intro'd me to.
then i gave it to kristie alesha sewon and -
who's got the book now?
WHO'S GOT MY USB NOW?

anyways, coraline is one of the stories where the movie might be as good as/be better than the book. the needle hands really freaked me out.

internet is good :)

my main man ray!

i love holidays i love holidays i love holidays i love holidays
nomatter how much i repeat that it will never express my love for holidays enough.

today i movie marathoned :D
the movies i remember we watched are:
interview with a vampire
kite runner
the bucket list
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

did you know tom cruise, 15 years ago, used to be pretty darn hot? especially as a pseudo kinda carlisle? and brad pitt would be the edward cullen? and kirsten dunst would be the.. prepubescent bella? DID YOU KNOW (if i haven't said it enough) ANTONIO BANDERAS IS THE CUTEST OLD MAN EVER AND I'D STEAL HIM IF I WERE OLD ENOUGH.

all the movies were really good.
well i havent finished eternal sunshine of the spotless mind just yet, but so far it's interesting.

i hate waiting.

things i am waiting for:
- the new pokemon game (good times ha eun. good times :) )
- everyone to come back from overseas
- bruno (which is crap apparantly)
- PUBLIC ENEMIES. FUCKKKKK. AOISJOISJOISJFOISDJFOSD ASGYDSD i've wanted to watch that one since fast&furious
- me to grow taller
- great changes
- someone to slap me awake.
- an awakening experience
- or just an alarm... which i will snooze
- psp. damnnnittttttt ):
- ps3 damnit damnit damnit
- win the lottery.

OPTIMUS PRIME (L)

21 goes is a hot song.

im playing this astrology game (because im a sucker for fortunetelling/tarotcards/horoscopes+thelike)
and here is my celeb compatibility:
angelina jolie - 88%
ANTONIO BANDERAS - 94% FUCKK
britney spears - 90%
bruce lee - 93%
chuck norria - 97% LOL
grace kelly - 99% O_O
rudolph valentino - 99%
tom cruise - 5%

the words of wisdom/rhetorical questions it gave me were -
where can i find a man ruled by reason and not by habits and desires?

some day you'll see

a friend who you see in a good light reflects your own good qualities

andddd i watched paris, je t'aime- cute movie :3
i wanna watch new york, i love you.
ALL THE HOT PEOPLE ARE IN IT!! or most of them~

AHhhhhhhh its holidays. i love holidays ahahaahahahahahaaa holidays :D:D
it's gonna run out.

fuck my mum never shuts up. fuck fuck fuck.

charlie brown is so cute.

MLS.

this song was sent to me by three people.. who probably don't know each other.
ISN'T THAT WEIRD????


Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fucking depressed
I just can't seem to get out of this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
And in order for me to pick the mic back up

I don't know how or why or when
I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel dissin' again
So I decided to just pick this pen

Up and try to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips with the fact I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet

And I know some shit's so hard to swallow
But I can't just sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow but I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow

One tough act to follow
I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you'd have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others' minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others' eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just say true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humour
Everything's so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check
The temperature of the room

Just as soon as I walk in, it's like all eyes on me
And so I try to avoid any eye contact
'Cause if I do that then it opens the door
For conversation, like I want that

I'm not looking for extra attention
I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom

I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of 'em ain't even funny like

Ha! Marshall you're so funny man
You should be a comedian, god damn!"
Unfortunately I am
I just hide behind the tears of a clown

So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes
And you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves
and flip 'em, don't expect no help

Now I could've either just sat on my ass
And pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own

I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
I sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did

I just wanted to fit in
Every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid

And Edna always told me
Keep making that face and it'll get stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue tryna talk like that

'Til i stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole
At 8 years old
I learned my lesson then
'Cause i wasn't trying to impress my friends no more

But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'Cause where you see it, from where you're sittin
It's probably 110% different

I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each others shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear 10's
Let's see if you can fit your feet

In my shoes, just to see
What its like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others mind
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you

So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So

Lately i've been hard to reach
I've been to long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

Yeah, to my babies
Stay strong, daddy will be home soon

And to the rest of the world
God gave you shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear 'em
Be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful

--


GNAWW. eminem (Y)
anyways, my school shoes are size four. yours?

you're never gonna fit in much, KID

i hate vd lolll
incursion was faill. wasn't thinking clearly either.
cabinets should always be kept locked. so depressed children can't get to its contents.
haaaaaahhhhh im sick now.
again.

i wish i got straight a's this report :/
would make my life that much easier. too bad it's not gonna happen.
oh wells. still possibly enough to get me where i want. for now.
it's so annoying going through stuff to find proofs of my excellence. my mum throws half that stuff away because im not special enough.

i dont want to miss a thing.
and i need a jobbb but not at maccas lol
actually working at maccas @ st leonards aint so bad..
its like.. judy's second home. they're all so nice. free food + discounts too!
damnn... if only i'd gone to drama night.. one more lean beef burger for me :D

la la la lal allalala

omg i know this is wayyy overdue, but


WHAT THE HELL MANN
WHAT THE HELL
ME AND YEJI > THEM WTHHHH
maybe it was coz they were dancing. yeahh probably.
they dance heaps good *0*
i know you can't really sing in electric live, but THEY SOUND LIKE THEY'RE DOING KAREOKE/imitating 2NE1 and sort of failing. AND ITS THEIR OWN SONG SO ????
im disappointed. they got better past the half mark tho :/
--

New York, I Love You
But you're freaking me out

New York, I Love You
But you're bringing me down

New York, I Love You
But you're bringing me down

Like a death of the heart
Jesus, where do I start?

But you're still the one pool
Where I'd happily drown

Maybe I'm wrong
And maybe you're right
Maybe I'm wrong
And myabe you're right

Maybe you're right
Maybe I'm wrong
And just maybe you're right

But maybe she's wrong
And maybe I'm right
And just maybe she's wrong

Maybe she's wrong
And maybe I'm right
And if so, is there?

heehee :3

so i've been listening to cherish by ai otsuka for a while now.
gnaww it's such a pretty song.
so are.. i think.. HEART, planetarium, goldfish fireworks and this other song.. i have forgotten.

today my dad bought my brother $100 dollars worth of yugioh cards. i dont remember ever getting anything like that. ever. ==
such is the nature of favourtism.

OHH YEAHH DID I MENTION? (no i didn't)
k is superfun.
and yeji said sing very loudly on singstar and you can hit notes easier.

omg mavesh thinks of the most random things ever.
"would you rather do the tree man? ... or .. .... a really hot gorilla?"
L O L. tough one there ;)
i was like .. who the hell is tree man? then i looked him up and oh my god.
if you think you've lead a tough life, go look up this guy. ohh man.
if i were a millionaire i'd buy him a whole litre of american cure/whatever it is

it's so nice to have no homework once in a while. well i do, but it's not that much. ha, being a yr10 sucks shit. FIVE MORE YEARS.

ANYWAYS, quote whoring again :0

“ Missing someone isn’t about how long it has been since you have seen them or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something and you wish that they were right there with you.

“ excuse me while I fall apart,
don’t flatter yourself sweetheart
let me take the wheel,
and crash this car
do you have to make this so hard?
you’re so good at pretending everything is alright. — Matchbook Romance


"There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you think they’re perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction, ‘cause your soul mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis, and makes you face your shit."
— Madonna

"What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming"
— Unknown

"I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love, and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on."
— Amber Morely

"Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart."
— One Tree Hill



"My knees buckled, I went down to the floor. I cried in English, I cried in French, I cried in all the languages, because tears are the same all around the world."
— Miranda July

"What I need is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."
— Gossip Girl

"I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

Be wise enough not to be reckless, but brave enough to take great risks.

It’s okay to fail – learn from it and you will succeed.

It’s better to be pissed-off than pissed-on.

"Everyone has their weak spot. The one thing that, despite your best efforts, will always bring you to your knees, regardless of how strong you are otherwise."
— Sarah Dessen (Lock and Key)

"She was a smart girl, until she fell in love."
— Sex and the City

i want to know how exactly to define what life should be.. what i should be looking for and trying for. i can’t seem to understand society anymore. life in the silicon valley.. well, it’s been impressed upon me that my life should go something like this: finish college, get a good job, keep a good job, make a lot of money, meet a guy who has done these same things, date for a while, both should get masters/phds, get married, have children, give them everything i was given. but my question is.. who said this is the dream life of every silicon valley baby? when did it become unacceptable to fall in love with someone of a different background and status? what’s so wrong with moving to a quiet town, say in texas or oklahoma.. getting a small house or maybe a farm.. raising a family the old-fashioned way? you don’t need a 6-figure salary to maintain a happy life somewhere other than the bay area, LA, new york or other places like that. when did we all become so discontent and jaded that all that matters anymore is how much money you make.. what i really want to know is.. when did love get so discounted that it means less than 100K a year at a job that likely will ultimately make you miserable? and if your heart feels broken every day while you live in a 500K condo wearing designer clothes and eating expensive food, what’s that REALLY worth?

"About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, And some won’t like you at all."
— ~ rita mae brown


"Anyone can become angry—that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way—this is not easy."
— Aristotle

"A hug can turn your day around, it’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone puts their arms around you, and they give you a squeeze and all your fear and anxiety comes shooting out of your mouth, and you can breathe again."
— Pushing Daisies

"We lie together. Smiling and holding on to each other and the night and the moment. We stare into each other’s eyes and softly kiss, speaking and saying more with the movement of our lips and the tips of our fingers, more than words will allows us to say. Words can’t say this. The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn’t communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love. Love."
— A Little Million Pieces, James Frey.

sometimes i feel like hope is a dangerous thing. it has both the power to keep us moving forward and the power to keep us from moving on. deciding on when to keep it in mind is probably one of the hardest decisions of all.

i want so badly to believe that
that there is truth,
that love is real.

Clark Gable - The Postal Service(photo via)

"You don’t always have to be what they want you to be."
— 10 Things I Hate About You (

"No matter how many times I tell you she’ll break your heart, or how many times she does it, you’ll never give up. Why, you ask? Because you love her."
— Great Expectations

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief…and unspeakable love."
— Washington Irving

"Commitment is the component of love. Short term commitment is the decision that one loves someone. The long term aspect is the commitment to maintain that love."
— Robert Steinberg

"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that’s just fabulous."

Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel always. Be you, and be okay with it..
unexcitable:- unknown

"I hated being depressed, but it was also in depression that I learned my own acreage, the full extent of my soul."
— Andrew Solomon

pheww;;

somebody will shoot me if i post any more in the same blog hhahaa