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getting up in the mornings is getting harder and harder.
someone taped my back to the mattress, i swear.

i don't hate school.. do i?
i'm such an idiot. i get so.. envious easily o_o
and compare myself to everyone and everything.
cz.. i was taught like that.
going to school is.. confronting in that manner.
it makes me question myself and think stuff like
.. now why aren't i smart like that?
is everyone talented except for me?
how come she's so skinny?
why are they so _______?
am i really alone?
what exactly am i good at anyway?

i'm a .. tryhard o_o"
thinking all this makes me psycho and i just HAVE to be better than them.
so i try. hard. sort of. then i eventually realise i cbf.
i'm too lazy. so i'd rather retreat into my little sanctuary of a room and never come out.

im just not enough. says the inner emo