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i must be overreacting. yes. i am. i hate disapprove of people who have no self-control.
i spend so much time swallowing my words and pushing back my temper.
when i do that, it takes a lot of energy and effort - i expect everyone else to do the same for me, at the very least.
common courtesy, really.
just because you're angry, doesn't give you any right to say whatever you want and do whatever you want, just because it makes you feel good.
though i guess you can, if you really want to.
but you can throw as many tantrums, throw, kick, punch, scratch and break everything you want.
you can scream and cry and bitch to the whole world; it still won't change a thing.
yes, i know, it's all about you. you you you. but to me, this is my world.
from my perspective, my world is all about me. me me me.
and what you you you are doing is putting me me me out of my happiness.
it doesn't seem to work like it used to. somewhere along the line, i developed a consciousness and now we just don't click.
i don't like it.
yes, i also know you were bought up like that.
of course you can't take no for an answer, ever, can you?
you're used to getting everything your way and you seem to be able to notice everyone else's shortcomings but your own.
take take take take take. i've nothing more to give.
i know, you've given lots too. and i greatly appreciate that.
but you were to me, much more than you could ever live up to, it seems.
semi best friends, after all, are meant to actually care.
but enough with my bullshit.
haven't you had enough?
i have.

now i'm going to have to try compensate for what i've done
the people i'd turned my back on, bitched about and maybe even backstabbed; for you.
i'm going to try make everything better. but for me this time.